I go to sleep every night hoping to wake up in the morning with a new perspective.
Upon waking up though, I am disappointed by the results.
I wake with a heaviness in my chest, disappointed with the things I did yesterday, no progress made, if anything I might have taken two steps back.
The day that awaits fills me with fear.
Crippling anxiety begs me to shut my eyes and sleep it all away, but I know that the only sleep that lasts forever is for the dead, and I am not quite ready for that.
So, I get myself out of bed, and go through the motions of the day.
Waiting and waiting for something bad to happen.
But later on, the day will eventually to come to a close, and relief will flush though me.
To only go to bed that same night, and once again be riled up even more about my worries of tomorrow.
Thus, starting an endless loop of what I call my life.
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This story is going to be very personal to me, not only because I am taking inspiration from my own life, but from people close to me as well. I hope you enjoyed this little snippet.
With all my love,
Rachel
cover art by aneonsky
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ChickLitma·ni·a [ˈmānēə] NOUN mental illness marked by periods of great excitement or euphoria, delusions, and overactivity. ______ The heartbreaking and inspiring story of the depressed, overworked, anxiety ridden college student Jade. cover by @aneonsky
