Broken

Chapter 1

Sometimes don't you ever wonder what it would be like without parents? I mean like seriously why get married when it never last. Like you can't change your parents chooses because they are adults and they have the power. But if you want to head to let's say your friends house they have to agree with it. I mean like I'm serious why do they fight why do they argue over little things. These questions always go through my head and people wonder what's wrong with me because I go to school and never speak. I just think that talking is boring I like writing better, you can write things that come to your mind and no one can judge you cause it can be private or you can tell the world but I like being by myself it's more nicer it's quiet and no one can ask you to stand up and go in front on a huge class and present. but I mean maybe I'm not human maybe I'm just a a messed up creation of god. Maybe I wasn't suppose to be here because I'm so different compared to people. They just stare at me and I bet what goes through their mind is "oh it's the quiet girl again"But I'm done with those people I just stay in my own bubble and don't move don't speak don't look just quietness and peacefulness. But okay so my names Natalie I'm 15 and I'm in the 9th grade I only have one friend. Amanda. She's kinda like me but she's the only one i talk to we are one of those to goth kids in the back row who just talk about anime and books but we aren't emo as some call us. We don't go home and complain and listen to emo bands and cut our selfs we don't walk around in black clothes and spike bracelets. We just sit. Look. And write. We do talk at times but not enough to get in trouble. Is it bad that I might like emo guys who where emo hair cuts I mean they're cute but that doesn't in any way mean I'm emo or that Amanda's emo we are just independent. Sometimes you walk around a store and look at something and say that looks nice I'll get it but in your mind your thinking hey maybe someone else will like it and say something to me so I'm not such a loner. Everytime I go in a store I look for things other people like not what I like. I don't get my life sometimes I'm so weird in a sense. But maybe someday someone will notice me.