Dear diary... || Daniel Seavey

4.

It was 9 am, and I was sitting in the classroom. Waiting for the last few people to come in. My nerves were going crazy, even worse than the first day at this school. I tapped the table with my pen, not once but several times. Daniel was sitting next to me and looked at me "Are you nervous?" He asked while watching my pen. "No why?" I answered knowing it was a lie. "Because you keep tapping the table with your pen." He laughed at me and I immediately stopped. "Ok, a little nervous." "Why?" "Don't always ask a question back." I giggled and hoped that he would turn around.
"We are going to start with the presentations, lady's and gentleman." the teacher said and I started paying attention.

We had 2 hours for presentations, every presentations was 15 minutes, so that means not everybody could do it today.
Let
Me
Be
The
Lucky
One

"Next up is Gabriela" everybody looked at me
Fuck
No
I don't want
I don't even have a presentation
Only a few pictures
I don't know what I'm going to say

I stood up and walked over with my diary.
"Good luck gabs!" Daniel said with a smile on his face.
I couldn't say thank you, I had too much nerves.
And there is stand, in front of more then 20 people, talking about my life. Where am I going to start?
"Okay, so my name is Gabriela Baker, I'm 17 years old and I'm from North Carolina. I was born in Durham and I had 1 little brother named Sebastian." "Why do you say had" someone named Madeleine yelled trough the classroom.
I started to blush, but I tried to keep calm. "He is 12 years and we were a really close family. 3 years ago my parents-"
I couldn't say it
It was too much
I couldn't say those words in front of the whole class. Everybody stared at me
I had to say it
But how?
"My parents died in an accident"
What did I just said?
Everybody was silence and looked at me, especially Daniel was staring at me. He was in shock, but I acted like it didn't hurt me. "When they died, my brother and I were placed in a foster home. And now I'm living with the family Davis."
I showed them a picture of my foster family.
"This are my 2 foster parents, this is Lily and that's Ethan. They are the real daughter and son from my foster parents. Then you have James, Benjamin, Zara, Emma and me, we are the foster kids, they adopted us. So all the rumors about me being a sister of Lily aren't true. I'm a foster child and her parents adopt me."
"What about your brother?" someone asked.
Another question
I
Don't
Like
Questions
Why is that so hard to understand for people?

"He is placed with another family, we didn't spoke each other for 2 years." I couldn't say anything more because I was about to cry. I looked at my teacher and he saved me
"Okay, that's enough for today. Thank you Gabriela for sharing your story with us." I went back to my place and grabbed my bag. "Why didn't you told me?" Daniel asked, but I ignored him. I couldn't speak anymore, I was about to cry, not because of what I just said, because of what I didn't say.
My
Biggest
Secret

When the lesson was ending, I ran out of the classroom straight to the exit of school.
I needed to go away
I needed alone time
I needed to write
"Gabbie!!" I heard Daniel yelling my name, but I ignored it because I didn't want to talk to him.
I can't do this anymore
I lie to everybody
Every
Single
Person

I ran to the park, to the bench where I'm always writing.
I sat down and I felt some water out of my eyes
Tears?
Am i..
Am I crying?
I never cry since..
Since that one time
I wiped it away and opened my diary

Today is the day I told the biggest lie
The biggest lie ever
I didn't knew what to do
I just said it
And I don't know why
How can I look people in their eyes now?
And especially him?
How can I look at him?
Knowing that I lied to him..
Knowing that he will ever find out about the truth