Dear diary... || Daniel Seavey

5.

The next morning, I woke up and got myself ready into a blue high waist jeans and a shirt from Calvin Klein. I'm wearing my red vans and my leather jacket.
I slept bad, because of everything that happened
I'm tired
My head is full
Full with thoughts
Full with lies

I stepped in the car with Lily, driving to school. "Were you really sick yesterday?" I looked at her in shock. No, I wanted to say, but I couldn't. I couldn't risk anything "Yes, of course I was." I lied
Another lie
To
Much
Lies

I walked inside the school
And what I thought, didn't happen
Nobody was looking at me
That makes me happy
Well happy
Let's say it makes me feel better
I walked trough the halls, I'm glad we have a short day today. 1 period and we are free
I opened my lockers and suddenly Madeleine stood next to me. "Hi gabs" I was in shock and almost hit my head on the locker. "Did I scare you?" She asked me friendly, which was weird, because Madeleine isn't friendly. That's the last thing she would be
She is a weird kid
A bitch I heard from Lily
One of her friends ran into me, I dropped all my books.
"I'm sorry!" She yelled and she helped me grab the books from the floor. "No problem." "If there is anything wrong, you can tell me okay, because last time in the library you seemed very upset..?"
Wait
What
Madeleine said that she is there for me when I need her?
Is this Madeleine?
Who is she?
"Thank you" I said and closed my locker. I walked away with the books in my hand to the classroom. I took a seat, of course I was the first one, as always.

Suddenly Daniel came in with a huge smile on his face
"Good morning beautiful!" He gave me a kiss on my cheek. I started to blush and I saw Madeleine coming inside the classroom. She looked at me with a weird smile..
"Can we uh-" I wanted to say but I couldn't, what if he-
"Yes, we keep it a secret if you want" Thank god, he understands it. That's all I need right now.

After a long first period, we finally were done for today. A short day, thank the lord for giving me a short day. Because I'm tired
Tired of lies
Tired of life
Tired of everything
I walked with Daniel to the school from his little brother, he asked me to go with him because his little brother wanted to see me again, cutie.
When we picked him up, we went to the park, playing football. The three of us and I can tell you
That made me happy
Playing football with Daniel and his little brother with a huge smile on his face.
I was happy for a second
A second in my life
That I felt a feeling
I didn't felt since..
4 years ago
When it all started
The nightmare
The lies
The secrets

When Daniel dropped me off at my house I went inside and I took a seat at the table for dinner.
I felt good
I was happy
'You're happy' Ethan looked at me and I realized I was smiling. Oh god, suddenly my smile turned into a 'no emotion face'.
'No, I'm not'
Ethan mumbled something and then we started to eat.

I walked upstairs and take a seat on my bed. Grabbed my pen and my di-
WHAT
I opened my bag
I looked under my bed
On the floor
On the desk
Nowhere

WHERE IS MY DIARY?

'WHAT THE FUCK' I screamed and ran downstairs
'What's happening?' My foster dad asked
'Language young lady' my foster mom said. Everybody watched me while I was standing in the living room
'WHERE IS MY DIARY?' I screamed
'How can we know that?' Zara said
'Calm down, you'll find it' My foster dad puts his hand on my shoulder and I pushed it away.
'No seriously, this is important!!' I started getting mad
'Maybe it's in your locker, on school!' Lily said and came over to me to give me a hug.
Shit
I forgot my diary
This is not happening
Where do I have to write my story now?
I need to write down my thoughts..

I turned back upstairs and lied in my bed.
Hoping that it'll be tomorrow, real quick.