Little Did We Know

Part 1

KIM'S POV

"Babe?"

"In the kitchen!"

I've just come home from a long day rehearsing. I've never been so busy. This is getting crazy for Cheryl and I. We are both overly busy and having a hard time making time for each other. I hope she doesn't realize it as much as I do.

I walked over to Cheryl cutting strawberries, my favorite, and planted a kiss on her lips. I've missed these lips. They're filled with so many emotions.

"mmmm", is all Cheryl could muster.

"I missed you today!!" Cheryl tells me.

Little does she know, I have missed her so much more. I wanted to show her that tonight.

"I thought tonight we could have an old fashioned film fest.. just you and I?"

"Oh babe thank you, I really could use a cuddle right now." Her face drops as she tells me this. I know exactly what she's thinking about. Today is her child's 16th birthday... A child she gave up 16 years ago and has hopelessly been searching for. She will not even discuss having children until her little girl is found.

"I know baby.. I can only imagine what you're feeling today and I am sorry I couldn't be there for you today. I promise I will never stop looking with you." I look deeply into her eyes and can't help but notice the hurt. Her eyes start to water. I can't stand the scene of her crying, even though she looked absolutely flawless when she cried. Only Cheryl Tweedy could cry diamonds.

I look towards her and open my arms for her. "C'mere baby,"

She falls into my open arms. I can tell she is close to another nervous breakdown. These happened when big days in her baby girl's life came up. I rub her back soothingly trying to stop the breakdown that was happening right in front of me, occasionally placing kisses to her hair.

"Kimba, I n-need her. I can't believe I'm missing another birthday. I just wanted the best for her. I couldn't give it to her. Now I can. Now WE can. But I still can't have her."

"Chez babe, remember last year? We sat and I held you until the tears stopped. Don't be afraid to let me in. Cry if you need to. You don't always have to be so strong around me."

I could feel her breaking. It's breaking my heart. My gorgeous, strong-willed, perfect girlfriend crumbling right in front of me. She immediately drops into my arms grabbing my shirt like it would be the last time I held her. Her screams echoed throughout our house.

"I-I can't do this anymore. I can't. I;m not strong enough Kimba. Me heart is breaking."

I hate when she says she isn't strong enough. She is the strongest woman I know and I would ever know. There is no one stronger than my Cheryl.

"Cheryl, look at me." I put my finger under her chin and force her eyes to mine.

"You are the strongest person I know and I know you can do this. Just as you've done every day for the past 16 years. You will get through this. I love you so much angel. You are so perfect to me."

With that she put her head down onto my chest. I felt the hiccuping stop slowly and her relax in my hold.

"Do you wanna go upstairs baby?"

"Take us to bed Kimba."

I took her up to our room and laid her down on the bed before going to get her some pajamas to change into. I helped her out of her dress and slipped her pjs on. She looks so cute. She's just cried for hours, mascara running down her face, puffy eyes, and hair stuck to her face, but she is the most perfect thing I have ever seen. I have never been more in love with someone and I never would be.

"Okay sweetheart let's go to bed, okay?"

"Cuddle us Kimba?"

"Of course come here." She lays her head down on my chest as I snake my arms around her and run my fingers through her beautiful brown locks soothingly.

"Goodnight pretty girl. I love you."

"Goodnight me gorgeous girlfriend. I love you"