Don't You Forget About Me ( Reader x Jack Anderson )

Sorry , Can't Save Me Now

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Trigger warning

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A whole month has passed and you still can't remember the night fully , Jack is still in a coma , and school is rough.

  Nothing feels right anymore , you've tried and tried to remember Jack and all of the memories but you can't.

  You barely sleep anymore, you spend your nights in the small park you and Jack would go to. You look at the sky and just cry.

  You've been diagnosed with depression and anxiety. Anytime you get in the car you have a panic attack, and you sit at the window when you're not at school and just cry.You cry about everything and anything and some days you don't cry at all.

  It's one of those days currently, a rainy day where you're just sitting at you're window seat in one of Jack's Korn shirts while staring blankly at the sky.

  You don't want to do it anymore but you need to keep fighting for Jack , but it doesn't seem fair because Jack keeps getting worse. The doctors have given him a month. A month to live.

   His parents will shut off life support if he doesn't wake up in a month. You feel like you wish you could just do the same at this point.

  Jack was your world , if you lose him you have nothing to live for. You won't even go visit him. It hurts because you know he's gonna leave and you won't even remember him. You won't feel sad , he'll just be a stranger.

  
   You walk to the bathroom and stare at the mirror blankly . You don't look like yourself anymore. Your eyes are droopy and dark , your hair is messy and dirty , and you look like a mess. You go to school that way everyday . People whisper about you in the halls as you pass and they pity you.

  It's a feeling of drowning, and wanting out ; but there's no escape. No way to make it stop , no way to stop the pain , stop time , and stop yourself.

    You grab your anxiety medicine and pull out four pills , you're not supposed to take that many but you're just tired. Tired of everything.

  As you mindlessly swallow them all you walk back down the hall and see Jaeden in his room with Sadie . They both give you a sad smile , but you just limp back to your room.

Laying down , you grab a framed picture of your mom and hold it tightly as you feel yourself drifting off.

  Slowly your eyes close and it's all dark.

' Call my friends and tell them I love them
   And I'll miss them , but I'm not sorry.'

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Update coming soon