A Zombies Heart(Z Nation 10k Fan Fic/Book 4)

Time and Change + New Year,New Things

You don't have to read this but it would be much appreciated if you did

So basically I'm laying in bed at 1:00AM and thinking.And I've had these thought for awhile,their about change.Change is such a big and scary thing for example,I started this series Freshman year of high school...I'm a junior now.Four books in two years(coming up) is scary when I look back on it.And if I'm gonna be honest change and time scares the fuk out of me.When I started this book I was obsessed with Z Nation fan fics...The year after it I became obsessed with Supernatural fan fics,now this year I'm obsessed with Peter Parker/Tom Holland fan fics.Crazy how things change so quickly right?

Now about a couple months ago,during the summer,I started folling this Tom Holland blog on Tumblr.She posted a lot of great writing pieces and from what I could tell was a rly nice and good person.Now a month or two ago she had decided to close that chapter in her life,meaning she didn't want to continue writing Tom Holland fics anymore,she wanted to write more real pieces rather than fiction.And I remember seeing that post and my heart dropping bc it was change and it was scary.I had sent her an ask telling her how happy I am she wants to do more real writing but how sad I was she was leaving her blog.And it just made me realize how real and scary and how quickly time and change gets to you.Soon enough Z Nation will be over (there is news that it probably won't get renewed for another season)and then what???I obviously have other books to work on but I'm getting older...I don't think when I'm graduating college that I'll still wanna write a Tom Holland social media book,you know.And it so scary to think like that but it's the truth

Now I wanna go way back,to sixth grade to be exact.I had made a new friend and she liked one direction like I did at the time.She loved Harry Styles and one day we were in class talking about them when she brings up this app..called Wattpad.She tells me that there is this story she's reading about Harry Styles but it's different bc he's punk and whatever (No,not After.I think It was called Dark?)And I'm intrigued bc I loved Niall at the time and asked if there was things about him,she said yes there's tons of things about a lot of stuff.However,I didn't have a device to download Wattpad.So time goes by And for Christmas I get an iPod.And one of the things I download is Wattpad.As you can tell from the user,it's very childish and was made by a child.Im talking about this bc Wattpad And I go way back.But at one point in my life I wanted to move on from it,I thought I was too old and that if someone was to ever find out I was reading a Niall Horan fan fic they would think I'm weird.So months go by and I'm thinking about it,it's off my phone but I remember the password and user and whenever I'm bored I just wanna take out my phone and read something.And soon enough I realize I need it,I'm like an addict and was going through withdrawals.So I download it on my phone again and go back to reading.Crazy right.So much has changed within me as a writer and a reader

If you guys were to ever find my first books,you'd cringe so hard.Happy I deleted them but would want to go back and see what has changed from when I first started writing to now.

Anyway back to change,it's scary and sometimes I wish time would slow down bc I want to relish in the feeling of writing and being young and doing this bc I enjoy it.But I also know that soon enough it's time to grow up.I don't want a career in writing,I like it as a hobby.But can't see myself doing this forever.But with that being said,I dread the day that the I or the the Wattpad team pulls the plug on this we have going on here...

I don't know what else to say other than I'm gonna enjoy writing until I feel it is no longer apart of who I am.I will continue it until it no longer feels like a part of me.

Happy New Years and here's to another great year and many more great books xoxo ❤️