Experiment 360

23-Taehyung

You wanted to but you couldn't, you couldn't bring yourself to run away from his arms.

Every fiber of your being told you to run, not to get connected, but on the other hand, your whole body yearned to be in his arms, warm and strong.

Your tears stopped and you cursed him for being able to stop them while he was the cause for them in the first place.

You felt his hand stroke the back of your head, softly brushing your hair between his slender fingers, you could feel how they shook so violently.

"Y/n... there's something wrong with me...isn't there. This isn't normal....it's like I have-", "It's like you have two people living inside of you Taehyung" you spoke softly, you weren't the only one who noticed.

You felt him shake as you spoke those words, "I don't know how to fix it...it's been happening more and more, I think before this, before you, I was constantly in my other state of mind."

You jolted at the sudden realization and cringed, your face went white.

There's a reason why what you feel towards Taehyung is so confusing, he has two people living within him, one that you absolutely despise and fear, and one you yearned to be with.

You hated that you had just realized that, you weren't supposed to feel these sorts of emotions towards anyone, especially him

Not only did you never feel it before, you despised the idea of love, you didn't believe in it. Not that you loved Taehyung, but the idea was all the same.

These emotions did nothing but make oneself weaker and more vulnerable

For now, it would be better to ignore it.

Not only would that complicate things, you also had to take Jimin into consideration, if he would even survive. You still didn't know what he was to you.

"S-sorry to interrupt...again" you heard the same familiar voice.

"I couldn't help but overhear, I can't really do much but what you're describing, I am pretty familiar with it." Namjoon spoke

Taehyung released you and walked over to Namjoon, you immediately felt cold.

"W-what" Taehyungs voice was soft and wavering

"Yeah, I'm not an expert but I do know enough to hopefully explain it, if it's what I am thinking of."

"Tell me...please" Taehyung begged, and once again, you saw the small and helpless child he really was.

"Well, usually personality disorders like this occur from an enormous and difficult stress most likely occurring in the past. Your mind can basically create a personality that hides your real one in attempt to protect yourself from the real world" Namjoon explained and Taehyung followed each word

"like dissociative identity disorder?" Taehyung asked, he seemed terrified

"Not exactly, its not like you are a completely different person, the other personality knows that its Taehyung and is aware of everything you are, it probably isn't even aware it's a separate manifestation of yourself. Don't take this explanation the wrong way, that other personality, it is you. It's just an amplification of all your insecurities and all your darker and colder emotions smashed up into one" Namjoon spoke, his face was obviously very focused on this explanation, so much so he didn't notice the man breaking to pieces in front of you.

He was shaking, he looked as if he was ready to fall over.

"Is there any way...to get rid of it" Taehyung paused between his words, trying to build up the confidence.

"Not conventionally, but sometimes it can go away by either forgetting, accepting or surpassing that stress from your past, this hasn't been proven in the least though, don't get your hopes up" Namjoon looked at the man, it was a complete role reversal, Taehyung was now the one shaking at Namjoon words.

After that the room went silent, the only thing to be heard were the soft breaths of the four "people" present in the room.

You had almost forgotten Jimin was even there until now

"O-okay... thank you-" Taehyung let out the awkward words as a signal that Namjoon could drop the topic and go on to his regular business.

You both listened to the seemingly loud movements of Namjoon bandaging and taping up Jimin in midst of the utter silence.

You continued listening as Namjoon's heavy footsteps made their way out of the room and the slight creak of the door as it shut closed.

"I-I think we should sleep" You heard the man speak, his voice wasn't as smooth as it usually was, it rang with a slight gloominess that you would never fully understand.

"Y-yeah" you walked over to one of the couches opposite the one Taehyung had chosen.

You covered yourself in the old and ratty blanket that had most likely been down here unused since the day the room was built.

You drifted to sleep driven to the same vulnerability and the same dreams that made it impossible for you to get a good nights rest.

You jolted awake in a cold sweat and quickly realized you weren't the only one having a bad dream.

You looked over to the source of the slight moans and yells, your eyesight getting used to the dark and you were sure your eyes were glowing the familiar shade of yellow.

He was on the floor, writhing in the utmost pain, little gasps escaped his mouth as his chest heaved up and down, he too was covered in a sheet of sweat.

You looked over the man with a sense of pity, there was no way to help him.

You hesitated for a moment before brining yourself over to the man shaking violently on the floor.

You dragged over the old comforter and laid down next to the man, your body shivering from the sudden cold of the concrete floors.

You watched the mans face, as it writhed with pain and morphed into frowns with furrowed brows, slight streams of tears exiting his closed eyes.

You wanted to protect him, to help him, but you knew you couldn't, all you could do was snuggle yourself into the man hoping he knew, someone was there for him.

You snuggled your head into the mans chest as he laid on his side curled up. You fit yourself into the space made from his body and wrapped your arms around the broken boy.

You relaxed as you felt the shaking stop and his breathing returning to normal.

You looked up at the man who was sleeping comfortably and smiled, a real, genuine smile.

It wasn't for a few minutes that you realized the man was also looking back at you, his face confused and dumbfounded.

"Y/n" his voice was gravely

"Thank you" he expressed, you felt his arms tighten around you as you were pushed closer into his chest.

You gasped as he suddenly moved himself on top of you.

You watched as his face moved closer until you felt the warmth of his lips on yours.

Ugh these chapters are sort of boring but I need them so the story actually makes sense, next week and the next update after that is gonna be much more interesting