Being A Dad : Sebastian Stan

Imagines

Sebastian's POV

I opened my eyes just to see blurriness covering my vision. I rubbed my eyes hard. Then looked again. Things were a bit clear. I looked around and figured out I was in my bedroom. My eyes landed on the other side but I didn't find Ashley. My heart stopped beating. Where is Ginger? I hurriedly started to look around the room for Ginger finding the room whiter than ever. As if a thick layer of fog was covering the room. Yet everything was visible. I was about to get up from bed and run for my child when a voice came from behind. I froze in my place. My heart stopped a beat and then started to beat like it's gonna some out any time. My ears couldn't believe what I just heard. I slowly turned my head behind afraid if I hurry, I'll lose the voice.   When I turned my head behind, I felt  the love of my life leaning on the door frame. 

 She was wearing the same dress she wore on her funeral. She was looking like a fairy. She is my fairy. Her long brown was falling on her shoulder. Her front strands of hair was on her face due to leaning. Her light brown eyes were shining with happiness. Her plum lips were grinning at me. That pointed nose of her, what my Ginger got from her. I gulped.

"Hey." said the melodious voice with a lovely smile. I squeezed my eyes shut, jut to take the voice in my heart. Just to inhale the sound with my breath. Just to clam my heart that I am hearing the voice again. Not in some old videos, in real. How much I craved for the voice!

"Are you real?" my voice cracked. 

"In your mind?....Yes!" shrugged Anna as she walked towards me. I was still on the bed. She sat in the edge of the bed, as if maintaining a firm distance with me.

"Why did you sit there? Please, sit beside me. I missed you!" I pleaded with so much pain in my voice. She gave me a sad smile and tucked the lose strand of hair behind her ear.

"I can't" said Anna with a sad smile.

"How are you?" I said with intensity of my voice. I was yearning to hold her. Anna shrugged.

"Fine. I guess. What to you expect from a dead person?" Anna chuckled and I felt like someone slapped me with reality. Still I chuckled.

"You have become more handsome, Sebby!" said Anna as her face lit up with a bright smile. I chuckled.

"Say the full name then?" I smirked playfully. Anna started to laugh.

"Sebby the baby, only my baby!" said Anna and again started to laugh. My eyes filled the scenery of her laugh. After how long I am seeing this? How much I have missed this? How much my heart clenched to see one gimps of her. How much I have missed the melodious sound of her laughing. I can fall in love this girl everyday for the rest of my life.

"Tell me about you! How are you? How is my Sebby the baby?" said Anna.

"I guess, good. What can you expect from a man whose love of life left him?

 I said playfully and Anna sighed.

"If it  was on my hand, I would have never done it. trust me." said Anna sadly. I tried to reach her but she held up her hand.

"Please, Seb. No." Anna pleaded. My heart twisted. As if someone was hammering my heart and breaking into millions of pieces. 

"I love you!" said Anna looking down at her fingers. As if in her reply I would say something that would not be bearable for her.  

"I love you too. I have always loved you. I never stopped loving you. I will always love you. You are my life. You are my everything. You are always in my heart. No one can wipe out you from my heart. I know you are not with me physically. But in my heart, you are always with me. You will always be the only love of my life." I said every word truthfully. Anna looked at me with the happiest smile of her. Like that time when she saw Ashley for the first time. But then her smile turned into a sad one.