The University: Freshman

Chapter 19

Nevaeh

I sighed as we pulled up to the school. Thanksgiving was a bit awkward since I wasn't speaking to my dad.

"Bye sweetheart." My mom smiled from the front seat. I leaned up and kissed her cheek. I gave Nelly, my little sister, a big hug. My dad and I made eye contact but I didn't speak I just stepped out the car.

I grabbed my bag waving bye one last time before walking up to my dorm.

"You are lying! Omg I knew it!" I heard Jayda yell from her room. I put my things down and walked into their room.

"This hoe slept with Dontae." Jayda said as soon as she saw me. My eyes bucked as I snapped my neck to Angel who was just biting her lip.

"How was it?" I asked walking to Jayda's bed to sit on.

"That shit was good as fuck. Best I've ever had, but I'm not gonna tell him that" She said sighing.

"Speaking of sex? Jayda?" I asked since I remembered she went to Trevon's house for Thanksgiving.

"We almost did" She blushes turning away from us. She was actually really adorable when she gets all shy.

"But?" Angel asked.

"But his little sister who is apparently now my bff came in and we started watching movies." She said looking genuinely upset.

"Soon my butterfly soon." Angel laughed as Jayda playfully rolled her eyes.

"Last but not least you missy. Khalil told me y'all haven't spoke in a week or two, but he never told me why." Jayda called me out and I looked down. Both girls came and sat next to me knowing this was about to get serious.

I told them story from that day start to finish. Even including how I haven't spoke to my dad since the incident.

"awww Nevy" Jayda cooed hugging my side. Angel laid her head on my depressed shoulder. Reliving that day again is something I didn't wanna do.

"How is he gonna get mad at you though? It's not like you said it." Angel said with an attitude.

Jayda agreed and I shrugged. What's done is done and maybe it wasn't meant to be.

"No F that. Khalil is being a pussy and I'm about to tell him about himself." Jayda said as we both stared at her surprised.

"Yes Jayda Wayda!" Angel encouraged. Jayda has definitely spent too much time with her.

"Hello?" Jayda asked her voice stern before she got up and walked away from us not letting us hear the conversation.

"Nevaeh seriously..this isn't your fault. You were just caught in the crossfire of the situation." Angel reassured me pulling me into a hug.

"I don't know... he seemed really upset with me and it's nearly been a month." I pouted.

"He wants to meet you in your dorm. He'll be here in like 3 minutes." Jayda walked back in and I jumped up frantic.

"What? I'm not ready to see him. I don't even know what to say or how he'll react. I don't even know how I'll react myself." I panicked.

"Nevy relax." Jayda grabbed my shoulders giving them a squeeze.

"Can you guys not ear hustle this time just incase things go left?" I asked shyly because I know that's their thing.

"Of course. I guess I'll see if I can set up another dick appointment." Angel sighed throwing on a jacket.

"But-" Jayda started but Angel gave her this look.

"Ok gosh. I'll go get food with Trevon." She pouted looking for shoes.

"Great I'll drop you off myself." Angel smiled and Jayda rolled her eyes. There was a knock at my door and blood rushed to my cheeks I was so nervous.

"Good luck." They whispered as I walked to my room shutting the bathroom door behind me. I opened the door a little bit and there Khalil stood looking around. When his eyes landed on me I could've sworn they dilated before I looked down.

"Hey" I mumbled played with the sleeve of my hoodie leaning on the door.

"Wassup." He said rubbing the back of his neck.

I was back in my awkward shell with him and I think he could tell.

"Mind if I come in?" He said pointing behind me.

Without saying a word I opened the door wider and stepped aside giving him room to come in. I shut the door behind him and leaned on it again. We sat in silence for a minute consumed on our on thoughts not knowing what words to say.

"I uh made you this." He said pulling out an old mp3 player.

"What's on it?" I asked not moving towards his outstretched hand.

"Songs that make me think about you. I started making it before the situation, but that only pushed me to finish it. I just haven't had the balls to come see you." He chuckled softly to himself.

"Khalil I can apologize a hundred times for my dad, but I didn't do anything and what you did to me really hurt my feelings." I said looking everywhere but him. I don't really like confrontation.

"I know and I'm so sorry. Listen to this playlist before you think of anything rash to do then get back to me. Please." He set the mp3 down on my bed walking up to me.

My breath got caught in my throat as he pushed some hair behind my ear and kissed my forehead. He left out the room without another word and I was stuck there in a puddle of goo and butterflies.

I ran to my bed throwing myself on it before finding my headphones and pressing play on the first song. I couldn't help the grin plastered on my face as 'Chasing Cars' by Snow Patrol played.

13 songs later I was finally done and already searching for Khalil's location. There was one song in particular that I really wanted to ask about.

I quietly walked into the library because I remember him telling me this was his favorite place to go and relax at. As I made my way up the stairs I spotted his dreads at a table by the window.

"Khalil?" My voice came out much more timid than I expected.

"Nevaeh! Hey." He smiled at me getting up to pull out the chair next to him.

"Hey." I smiled back suddenly becoming nervous.

"So I'm assuming you listened to the playlist." He said going back to writing in the notebook.

I was never a fan of confrontation. I didn't like to address people, but what he said had me dying to know if it was true or not.

"Yea it was great. There's one song in particular that I have to ask about." My stomach felt tickled as if light feathers were dancing inside.

"I meant it." He said and my breath got caught in my throat.

"So that last song was you singing?"

"Yes. I love you Nevaeh. Not talking to you for that time being made me realize how much I truly need you. I crave your attention and I feel like I need your validation before I do things because of how good you are."He said with so much sincerity.

By this time his notebook was closed and his undivided attention was on me. He was waiting for me to say something but my mouth was dry. So many thoughts ran through my brain yet I couldn't form a sentence, so I did what I do with most of my problems.

I ran.

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Song: I think I'm in love by Kat Dahlia