My Mother, My Rival (SVT Joshua/Jisoo)

C17:I Still Loved You

Yena's POV

"Yena wait!." Joshua shouted from behind but I ignore him. He kept on following me until I arrived in my room...

"What do you want! Just leave me alone." I yelled and he closed the door but I don't think he locked it...

"Look! Why did you decided to accept your mom's request at the first place?." He asked...

"You don't need to ask because you didn't know anything!." I answered back but he shook his head...

"I know everything behind your marriage Yena, you didn't know that both me and Chaemi followed you on that unfamiliar cafe in this town. We heard all of your conversation. And I know you tried to refuse but Minji didn't allowed you. Am I right Yena?." He asked and I widen my eyes...

"H-how? I mean, eomma told Chaemi that you should stay here until we come back. But, why did you two followed us in the meeting?." I asked and he moved closer...

"Because we are both worried about you. You know Yena, when I heard that Minji arranged you and that guy. I wanted to interrupt your convo but Chaemi stopped me because she said I can't stop your mom from doing this." He said but I chuckled...

"Chaemi's right, you are wasting your strength. Besides, you don't need to do this because its for my sake not yours. But totally, I don't want to marry that guy." I looked down and I feel his arms hugging me...

"I know you don't want it Yena. We are the same, we ended our life in an arranged marriage. But we both doesn't love our partners." He said and I hugged him back...

"Joshua! Why can't I move on towards you if you keep acting like this. I-I want to ask you if you still love me or you feel bad for me." I said to myself because I don't want to hear this words...

"Are you feeling well now?." He asked and broke the hug...

"Yes, as long as your here with me." I mumbled but I don't think he heard it...

"What did you say?." He asked...

"Ah nothing! I said I'm ok now. Y-you don't need to worry about me." I lied and he pats my head...

"That's my girl, don't let your weakness dropped you ok." He said and smiled at me...

"But you are my weakness, everytime your here with me I feel complete. But, everytime that your with eomma I feel nothing. I love you Joshua." I said to myself before smiling at him...

"There, I need to go now. I bet your eomma won't feel bad about me because I followed you." He said and he planted a kiss on my forehead...

"W-why did you do that?." I asked but he placed his index finger on my lips...

"Because I still loved you Yena. And also, Chaemi told me that I don't have any space on your heart. So please, let me show my love for you Yena." He said and my heart started beating again...

"I'm engaged Joshua and also, you are married to my mom. And I will focus my heart to my future husband." I said and she smiled...

"I'm not asking you to love me. Of course I'll do anything for you, I wished that you still trust me." He said and I looked down...

"Uh! Forget that Yena. I need to go downstairs, I'll give you some space to emote." He said and get out of my room...

I sat on the bed and started hugging my pillow. H-he still loved me. I'm really sorry Joshua but I don't think this is the right time for you to know that I still loved you too...

But I'll promise you that I'll come back in the right time. But if that day happens, I wish we could live together without fighting and arguing with someone...

01/01/19