Oh How I Wish That Was Me (One Direction Fan Fiction)

Chapter 4

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Hope's POV

It's been a week since I moved in and I never want to look back. I wish I could completely erase everything. I haven't been sleeping very well. I stay awake at night because if I sleep, I'm afraid of seeing him in my dreams. He haunts them, completely taking over and controlling them. I should tell my grand mother but I don't want her to worry about me.

I stopped thinking about it and decided to take a long, hot shower. I get undressed and wrap a towel around me. I turn the knobs until I reach the perfect temperature. I drop my towel and step into the luke warm water. I allow it to run down my long brown hair. If feels good to be cleaned properly.

After I get out I wrap my hair up in the towel and put on my robe that was hanging on the back of the door. I was about to walk out of the steamy bathroom when something stopped me. I think it's the first time in a week I properly looked at myself in the mirror. Memories flooded my mind. Broken glass and being hit in the face. I can feel my heart racing. The names of what he used to call me filled my mind. Pathetic, worthless, fat, useless, ect. I could go on forever. And the worst thing he could ever say to me created tears in my eyes.

Being the reason my mother died.

I gently brought my hands up to my face, touching the bruises and scars. They were healing but you could still see them. I opened my robe to see the old and new bruises and scars on my stomach. They were everywhere. When I looked in the mirror, I saw a monster. A monster he created. He did this to me and I hated it.

I tried shaking the memories out of my mind and put my hair into a braid. I put cover up on to cover the scars and mascara to make my eyes pop. I lazily put on clothes and then I ran down stairs to get food. I'm starving.

I slowly turned to corner into the kitchen to see my grandmother working on something.

"Hi." I whispered but loud enough for her to hear.

"Hi honey. How'd you sleep?"

"Uhh, I slept ok." I lied while I looked at the ground.

"Good good. You want something to eat. I made pancakes" She asked calmly.

I smiled and nodded. I sat in a high chair at the counter. She handed me a plate of three pancakes with cropped strawberries and maple syrup. Also a small glass of tea. I dug right in and devour those pancakes.

My grandmother sat back and watched sincerely as I ate. She didn't say anything, all she did was smile. I liked how quiet she was. It made me feel comfortable.

"So" she said as I finished. "I have a job for you today, are you up for it?"

I nodded confusedly, wanting to no more. As much as I loved this place, I needed to get out of here.

"I'm not sure of how much you worked or if you ever worked before but An old friend of mill. is hiring. I thought it'd be a good start for you to get out and get to know London."

I never worked before but I could feel excitement build up inside me.

"You no, just to get a little money in your packet and-"

"I loved too." I got out before she could finished.

She smile, "Great! It's a little place called Nandos. Not much but I think it'd be perfect for you."

"Nandos?" I asked confusedly. I never heard of Nandos. What a strange name. I don't think there's one in America.

"Yes? You never heard of Nandos?" I shook my head. "Well, if it's ok, you can start today."