My Life

~Ignorance

Why do I keep thinking of you?

You deceived, tore my heart to pieces,

Had me question my true value.

I pay close attention when they say your name,

No longer talking, no longer admitting each other's existence,

For you don't feel anythingㅡwhile I feel shame.

Last time we spoke, we fought,

I wonderㅡwho was to blame?

The tears that you caused, the pain, the conflicts,

I knewㅡnothing will ever be the same.

Why do I keep thinking of you?

Tripping on my own feetㅡwaiting for the fall, but it never came,

A glance at my saviour had me frozen,

Feeling grateful, I say "thank you".

You smileㅡmy broken heart flutters,

Cheeks turning to a pink hue.

We return to ignoring, not even sparing a glance,

Why do we act like we are a plague?

Why can't we deal with this circumstance?

I try to forgetㅡthe butterflies, the tingling sensations,

The stupid, fairytale romance.

Memories keep rushing backㅡboth good and bad,

Wanting to focus on the pain, wanting to bring myself to hate you,

I didㅡfor a while, and I was glad,

StillㅡI keep thinking of you,

Your mesmerizing eyes, your breathtaking smile, your heart-stopping laugh,

Then, I hate myselfㅡhow can I think such things?

I always get sad.

Don't you see?ㅡI yearn to forget.

Don't you see?ㅡheart broken and shattered,

Soul void of happiness, bitterness consuming me,

Everything we've been throughㅡI do regret.