"One more push baby girl, come on now, you can do it!" She reassures me as she tightly grips my hand, holding it as I continue taking deep breaths while in labour. My eyes squeeze shut, and I let out a loud groan as I push once more as her instructions. Sweat continues to bead on my forehead and I feel a pair of lips on the top of my head.
I give it my all and a small cry comes from inside the room. "You did it, she's here." I look up and feel tears pouring from my eyes as a younger Ope runs his fingers through my hair. I look to my side and see my parents standing there, smiling down at the small baby girl that's being passed to me.
I take her in my arms and continue to cry tears of joy as I hold onto the precious gift of ours. Opie brushes his finger along her cheek and grins at the bundle of joy, and my mom brings my hand to her lips, pressing a kiss on them. "You did it, you're on the right path." She tells me with tears in her eyes. "I have to go, but I'll be back." I shake my head, looking up at my mom, not wanting her to leave.
"No, Mom, she just got here. Dad, don't let her!"
Dad gives me a sad smile and looks to my mother, "I'll see you soon, Jess."
"No! Mom!"
I burst out of my bed, my chest heaving from the dark dream I just had. My hair is sticking to my face and I feel my body coated in sweat and I let out a small cry, pulling my legs to my chest and leaning my head on them. I let myself sit in my sadness for a few minutes before reaching for my phone and making a call, hoping that everything will be better shortly.
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I groan as my phone vibrates on the side-table by my bed. I roll over and reach for it, immediately answering it without checking who's calling. "Hello?" I murmur. I hear crying on the other side and immediately sit up. "Faith? Babe, what's wrong?"
"I need to see you, Ope." She cries through the phone and I nod, pulling the blanket off me and walking to my pile of clothes on the chair in my room.
"I'll be there in five. I love you." I tell her before hanging up and getting dressed. I rush out of my bedroom, walking down the hall and hearing Kenny's game blare from his bedroom. I open the door and look over at him as he sits in front of his flat-screen. "I'll be back, alright? If you need anything, call me or Uncle Jax."
Kenny nods, "Yeah, sounds good, Dad." He says as he absentmindedly plays his game. I shake my head and pull on my boots before rushing out of the house and towards Faith's.
I finally get to my destination and park my bike in the familiar driveway. I walk to the door and open it, noticing that she's left it unlocked for me. I kick off my boots and lock the door behind me as I head to her room. I open her door quietly and hear her crying in the dark; her knees held against her chest and her auburn hair in messy waves and curls. "What happened?" I ask her as I close the door behind her and rush to her side.
I sit on her bed and pull her into my arms, rocking her gently as she continues to cry to me. "I-I had a dream. I had our baby and my mom was there with dad, but then she just left and never came back. S-she said I was on the right path but that she had to go and would be back one day." She sobs into my chest.
I feel my heart shatter as I hold her, "It's going to be okay. It was just a dream." I reassure her as I brush her hair with my fingers, doing all I can to calm her down, "It's okay, I'm here." I press my lips to her forehead and continue holding her in my arms, wanting her to feel safe and protected.
"No Ope, it's not okay. She's never going to be around when I have kids, she'll never meet her grandchildren or see me pregnant, or get married if any of it happens." She tells me softly, hiccupping from her cries. "I'll never be able to call her grandma or let her hold her grandbabies."
"She'll be here, she'll watch all of it happen, Faith, I promise. She might not be here in the physical, but she's here with you every step of the way, I swear." I tell her, wiping her tears from her eyes. "You'll never have to deal with any of that alone. She's always going to be on the sidelines watching and cheering you on."
Jess died from a sudden heart-attack. She was at work and collapsed. She died two and a half weeks after she officially divorced Pat for his drinking. Hell, she hadn't even moved out of their home yet. No one could've expected this to happen, but especially not Pat or Faith. "What if I die suddenly like that and leave my kids alone? My partner?"
I shake my head, "You won't."
Faith hiccups once more, "You don't know that."
I sigh, "I know, but you need to think of good things right now, babe. Your mom wouldn't want you to be this upset all the time. Let yourself cry and then look for good things like memories; your 16th birthday where your mom bought you that custom leather jacket to match Jax and I, or when she used to go see movies with us every Sunday. You guys have done so many great things, and you need to try and focus on them, especially when it seems too difficult to cope with."
"I'm sorry Ope, I shouldn't have called you so late. I'm sorry if I woke the kids up." She apologizes ot me and I shake my head.
"Don't be sorry, I'm glad you called. Ellie was sleeping, but Kenny was up playing that stupid game of his." I tell her, and she lets out a small laugh.
"That game is dumb." She gives me her two cents and I chuckle, pressing my lips to her forehead.
"Are you feeling any better?" She nods in my chest and I smile down at her, happy to know that she's doing better. "Do you want to come back to my place? Spend the night and we can have breakfast in the morning?" Faith nods, pushing herself away from me and dragging her feet to her closet before she pulls out a pair of sweatpants to cover her bare legs. My SAMCRO shirt hangs off her and I get out of my spot, walking over to her and pulling her into me, wrapping my arms around her and holding her closely. "I'm not going anywhere. I hope you know that."
She nods into my chest, holding me tightly. "I know, I love you."
I kiss her head and nod, "I love you too." And with that, we head out of the house and drive off to my place.
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Sorry guys, a bit of a filler chapter... But, how are you guys liking the story? Where do you want this to go? What do you think?xx
