Lies

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The things you say
And the things you mean
Are not the same
They never have been

You say you love me
You say it loud
But you don't mean it
You want them to think that you're proud

In reality you hate me
Always have, always will
You want to shove me in a box
And throw it in a landfill

I know that you don't want me
Nobody here does
And that's why this happens
These moments of  "just because"

Just because you hate me
Just because you don't want me around
Just because I'm worthless
I shouldn't make a sound

Speaking makes things worse
I found that out the hard way
So I can't defend myself
And I end up not wanting to stay

I don't want to be here anymore
I'm sick of you not caring how I feel
I'm tired of forcing a smile, a laugh
Because "My depression isn't real"

I'm done faking
I'm done lying
I'm sick of hurting
I want to be dying

But you don't care
You think I'm faking
Well guess what honey?
My heart is aching

I'm scarring my body
Staining my skin
Starving myself
Because "I should be thin"

But nothing appeases you
Nothing matters
You've left my body broken
And my mind in tatters

I hope it was worth it
I hope you had fun
I hope that you're happy
Because Now

I

Am

Done

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