Oblivion

prologue

The skies were grey, and it looked as if rain was about to pour all over. But I knew better, in this isolated small town, a town that goes by the name of Middleton the skies were permanently marked dark and gloomy - and I was yet to see the sunshine so brightly as it did once before. 

It was chilly, early this morning. Colder than it usually is, alarming if I gave a shit. The thin black sweater I was wearing wasn't a very good source of protection and I should probably fold down the army green pants that resided on my legs, but you get used to it. The cold that is.

Nobody was outside, no thieves or drunks - no cars were passing by either. The only thing that could be heard was the soft patter of my footsteps and the rustling of the harsh but slow wind rearranging the small park I was walking through.

I pulled my hoodie up, once realizing that my ears had gone numb. Probably not a good sign, and lowered my head looking down but not staring. My mind was elsewhere, as it usually was. 

My thoughts were swirling wildly, with things I don't like to think of but at the end of the day, they always came back to haunt me. I couldn't stand it, and I wish I could run away from them. But that's the problem, this is the one thing I would never be able to run away from.

I would never be able to run away from myself.

I hadn't realized I had bumped into someone, with my thoughts so wild. But with an apology, I moved on - not sparing a single glance behind me. 

I didn't stop to appreciate the big old oak tree that has been planted in this park since the old times; I didn't bother to stop and take a look at the outside world to see how much it has changed from the last time I focused on it.

But I wish I had. I wish I turned around and stared hard into those beautiful eyes that always spoke more than his mouth did. 

I didn't know exactly what the world had planned out for me. I just knew it wasn't that exciting - I hadn't suspected that it all started with a bump in the shoulder. I thought my whole life consisted of one thing - and that one thing was definitely not happy. I thought that's all my future would have in hold for me and nothing more, but I just wish I knew how wrong I was.

I wanted to see the stars behind those grey clouds but I wasn't doing my part. There was a hand reaching out but I wasn't reaching towards it. I hadn't known he reached his limits, hell, I hadn't known he exceeded them - and when I found out. It was just too fucking late.

I hadn't known, and that was the problem - because when everything was halting to a stop I didn't know only one of us could go on, and he stayed back - for me.

I am Jamie Heart and this is my ending.