Why...how could he do this to me. Why. after the cabin when we got back home a few weeks after we were hanging out on the couch and he went to get something out of the kitchen and his phone beeped. I thought it was mine so i picked it up. It said
" hey you should come over again.." from alivia. In shock i put his phone down and sat there. When michael came back i said you got a text. He picked up his phone. Then looked at me.
" it's not what it looks like." he said.
" i think it's exactly how it looks." i said fighting the tears from coming.
" i thought you liked me, i thought you were a nice guy.'' i said.
" i guess i was wrong."
" it's not like that baby." he said.
" then what is it, and don't call me that." i yelled.
" i was drunk i went over there to talk to her and we ended up kissing." he tried to explain. Finally the tears just came flooding out of my eyes.
" you still are that playboy." i said crying.
" i'm not, she kissed me and then i stopped it because i'm dating you, and because i don't just like you... i love you." michael said trying not to cry.
" i love you too but why did you not tell me about this." i asked still teary.
" i was scared that you would react this way." he explained. We sat there for about 30 minutes. I had to get home. I was so overwhelmed about what happened.when i got home i texted becky and told her what happened. I did not know what was happening with michael and me so i did what i loved doing when in bored or sad. I plugged my earphones in and listen to music.
After that I fell asleep for the whole day. The next day I got a text from Michael asking to meet up. He said to meet him at the park. I wa doubting if i should go meet him. I really wanted to but i was scared of us ending. I decided i wanted to go. It was late so i had to sneak out. Since i was sad i changed into sweats and a hoodie. So i changed into some leggings and i was still wearing the hoodie. I did not notice till after i left for the park that it was michael's hoodie. When i got there michael was sitting on the bench. I walked up to him and he stood up. He Gestured to the spot beside him on the bench. I sat down and he sat next to me. I kept looking down I could see you Michael trying to look in my eyes but I knew if I looked at him we would have to talk and that things might be over between us. I did not want things to end oh, I was mad at him but I still loved him. did he still love me. I just kept thinking how he didn't tell me about what happened with alivia. but in some ways I knew why he didn't tell me, what I have told him if that happened to me I wasn't sure anymore. suddenly he lifted my chin, and I had to look at him. he asked if I was okay. I didn't know how to answer that mainly because I didn't know what the answer was oh, I didn't know if I was okay what he did hurt me but I couldn't stay mad at him forever. I ensured him I was fine and how what he did it hurt me by doing it and by not telling me. he told me it would never happen again and he should have told me.
'' I still love you Jess, and I I want to be with you." Michael said.
" I love you too, I still want to be with you too." i told him. Michael wrapped his arms around me. I hugged him back. He kissed me, i kissed him back.
" i was scared i was going to lose you." michael whispered in my ear. When i heard him say that, my heart just melted. That he was scared to lose me. When i heard that i kissed his neck and for once i gave him a hickey. After we walked back home and i snuck back in. this time i did not get off as easy, when i was walking back to my room zac opened his door grabbed my arm and pulled me into his room. It all happened so fast.
" where were you."zac ask
" i was..." i started to say.
" you were where." he began.
" i was out." i said leaving. He grabbed my arm again. And assured me that i would get caught doing whatever i was doing. I walked back to my room, i suddenly got a text from michael. It was a picture instead of a text. He sent me a pic of his neck. The caption said
''This time you gave me a love bite'' i laughed reading it. I guess i did it this time.After I changed back into my pajamas and climbed into my cozy bed I fell fast asleep before I could even know.
I actually woke up early that morning and wasn't late I had time to exercise and then I showered put my makeup on and got dressed in the clothes that I set out the night before i ate avocado toast for breakfast texting Becky. are you coming to pick me up soon. I texted Becky, she texted back yeah be on my way. as I was waiting for Becky I stood outside waiting for her. I saw Michael get into his car and as he was he shot me a look a very sexy look. as I was waiting for Becky I felt Zac, and just about pushed me over, she always gets a ride with Michael in the morning so he marched himself over there. I was getting pretty annoyed with Zac first time in interrogating my hickey and then calling me a baby and getting mad at me for sneaking out when he sneaks out all the time to meet a girl. apparently Zac is dating someone and I'm not 100% sure who she is. I don't even think I want to know who she was. it's pretty chilly out there waiting for Becky she took around 15 minutes to get here even though she lives so close to me because of my outfit I had a little bit of a cardigan on so that kept me warm and I didn't have a hoodie because it gets too warm during the day. Becky finally got there and she drove us to school. when we got there I walked in my locker with Becky hers is right next to mine so we chatted up while we were there. people still talked about me at school for spilling the milkshake on Emma. I saw alivia. she was not aware of the situation that happened between me and Michael because while she didn't know that I was dating Michael she only knew that he had a girlfriend and she still kissed him which made me really pissed off. I used to be friends with her and like middle school but then we went to high school and everything changed most of my friends from middle school change and not for the good most of us didn't stay friends but there was still some friends for middle school that I really liked and they're my best friends including Becky. I shot her glands when she looked at me it wasn't that bad of a glance and she just walked away. I was still a little bit holding a grudge from what happened with Michael and alivia but I love him and I couldn't let her between us. Becky must have seen her too because after she came over to me and tried to distract me from the situation that's why she's my best friend. as I was talking to Becky I felt hands on my hips and I could see that Becky's hands were in front of me so I knew it wasn't her that would have been awkward if it was I turned around and Michael is there but he assured me that there was nobody else in the hallway and then he leaned down and kiss my lips so gently. I'm so glad that everything is back to normal that little time that we were apart made me really sad even if it was barely a day. I really hated school it was so boring and my home life is so much better than school I don't even know why we had to but I'm so glad that in two years I would be done with that I'll be off to college... College, Michael's going to college soon. I was going to miss him so much I thought to myself .I couldn't think of that now we still had the whole school year and summer before he left. After school becky dropped me off at home then she said she had to go out. I didn't think twice and said ok then got out. Michael came over because my dad was not going to be home for two hours. We started to watch a movie but didn't get to far before we started to make out. It didn't take long before michael and i were back to normal after the mishap. I was not quite over it yet but when i was in his arms and i felt his heat and body against mine i felt better. Before we new it michael had to leave. I didn't want him to, so i told him to come over later when i texted him. Like sneak over. After my dad got home we ate supper and chilled a bit. After my dad finally got home michael came over, well snuck over. I brought him up stairs and into my room. We had to be quiet because of zac and my dad. But i had a lock on my door because im 17 and just about an adult. he layed on my bed and i locked the door and crawled on top of him. I was sitting on his lower stomach. And leaned down and started to kiss him. He was kissing me back. I took off his shirt, then he took off mine. He did this very swift move. And he switched our positions so he was on top and i was on the bottom. In one swift motion. he started to kiss my neck he knew that i loved that. I bit my lip again.my hands were gripping onto his back. We made out for a while and just wanted to snuggle. We snuggled for a while and i needed just to rest my eyes. So that's what i did. And before i knew it it was the morning. Michael had spend the night. I guess we both got tired and fell asleep last night. I woke him up and sadly he had to leave out my window. I wanted him to stay and I also wanted to stay there with him. But I knew that we had to get to school. He slipped out the window and I get ready for school and we left. The day of school birthing really happened we had a test and that's really it nothing else happened and we got so bored during math class so we played some games.
