[voiceless] • Hwang Hyunjin

note 59 °hyunjin°

“What should we do now? Hyung is still unconscious.”

“I don't know okay? Don't ask me? I'm still trying to think.”

“Should we slap hyunjin hyung so he'll wake up?”

“Babo! His head will just bleed if you do that! Think wise kid!”

“But if we don't do something, noona will be—”

I heard voices and noises as I slowly opens my eyes. Why is my body aching so bad? What happened? Where am I? Who are those voices I'm hearing?

“You're awake!” I heard someone shouted that so I look at who could that be and I saw Seungmin smiling widely while looking at me.

Why is he smiling like an idiot?

“W-what happened?” I asked then tried to sit up something's wrong with my lower body.

An excruciating pain creeping up inside of me as I move.

Heol. What's happening?

“Stupid! Don't move yet!” Chan hyung hissed at me as he helped me lay back at my bed.

“What happened?” I asked them again while enduring the pain I'm feeling.

Hell.

I heard them sigh before answering me. “You got into an accident before you've been able to meet—”

“hyung...” i called as I cut him off.

“ye?”

“Where is she?” i asked without even looking at them.

I put my arm on my face to cover it up so they won't be able to see me.

i heard him sigh again. why? is it that hard to tell me that she left now?

“about that, when Jisung went to the place where you and Sky— I mean, Kylle, will meet up, sorry. She wasn't there anymore.” he answered.

A bitter smile formed into my lips.

I didn't answer him. I kept silence for a moment.

Digesting the words he said before i speak.

“You mean Skyllar, right?” I said, breaking the silence.

“hyung...”

“hyunjin...”

“I knew it was Skyllar all along. You do really think I'll let you all fool me? No. It was Skyllar who I saved at the rooftop. It was Skyllar who keeps on sending me notes. It was her all along. And you all keep it from me. Why?” I whispered as tears started pouring out from my eyes.

Hell. Why am I even crying?

Silence then again ate us.

When will they even tell me the truth?

“Why do you all have to keep it from me? Don't you know how worried I was everytime I see her? Don't you know how crazy it was to think who I'm loving between the two? Don't you know how fucked up it was to feel played like some stupid toy? No right? Because it wasn't you who got played.” I told them honestly as bitterness keeps on dripping from my lips.

“It was her wish. We can't do anything but granted it.” jisung answered.

“I want to be mad at her but I can't. I can't because I'm in love with her. I love her despite the fact that I don't know her. I love her even though she's still a total stranger to me. I love her even though she played with me. Why am I so in love with her anyway? She's not that special.” I muttered and seconded with a bitter chuckle.

Why am I so in love with you Skyllar?

“Hyung...” It was Felix.

I didn't answer. I just kept my mouth shut.

“Noona didn't leave...” his words stung but I still keep my mouth shut but what he added made my heart stopped.

“She's here in the hospital too because someone stabbed her while waiting for you...”

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