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Chapter 17

Jimin's POV

It was 10.00 o'clock and as usual the rest of the group was having a video chat on Skype something that I have stopped doing, but I feel like having a video chat

I got up from my bed and went in front of my computer

I pushed join and in a second all of their faces were on my screen

Nm: It was about time

Jn: I knew it already

Hs: Yeah me too, I thought you were dating secretly

Nm: What about you Yoongi?

Yn: Emm....I don't even care I just want to sleep

Jm: Yeah we know that already just say something nice once

I said making everyone surprised as they didn't have notice me

Yn: So you are telling me to lie?

Jm: No, I'm telling you to shut up or say something like " It's nice, well done"

Yn: Why are you even here? Aren't you something like depressed and don't feel like being here?

Jm: See what I mean? You just need to shut up instead of opening your mouth and hurting people just because you wanna show you are strong enough, but guess what! You are a coward Yoongi

I said and log off

I felt tears running down my cheeks

I start throwing things everywhere

Until I got an idea, yeah this will take the pain for a while right?

I went to the bathroom and locked  the door

I took the small blade from the razor and without hesitating I pushed it against my arm

The tears became more, the blood started running unstoppable

I put my arm under the water

What the fuck am I doing?!

God I'm so tired of all this

Yoongi POV

Nm:What just happened?

Hs:Well Jimin is right, I mean he had enough

Jk: Wait, Yoongi are you crying?

Yn:What? No, I-I'm j-just.....sorry..

I said and log off

Why did he react that way? Well of course he would react like this

Aish I'm really that awful!

Maybe I should just kill myself so I wouldn't hurt anyone with my awful personality

And so that I will stop hurting

Author's POV

Jimin was feeling sick, not the feeling of having a fever
the feeling of been broken he was, completely broken; his hurt was hurting every second, he was feeling this weight on his chest and he couldn't help it. He thought that loving someone that much would be a nice feeling but he was so wrong that even the thought would smashed him to tiny uncountable pieces

Yoongi was even more depressed but of course no one would understand. Everyone thought it was just the sleepy Savage guy that just didn't care that much, but it was the exactly opposite ; he was caring so much that he couldn't handle it anymore. Caring but too late to do something. Of course he knew he was treating Jimin like crap but he never thought Jimin would care. Why would he care? He was asking himself. And of course paying his lessons did make him feel like he did something for him. Something that makes him happy. And he didn't mind Jimin not knowing,he didn't want him to know at the first place. He was really sorry but why wouldn't he stop then? He would never admit how afraid he was to talk to him nicely, for Jimin to smile to him. He was afraid of his smile cause his smile was his death. Knowing it will never be his. Knowing that he couldn't kiss this smile. And being afraid killed him inside