i don't understand my emotions.
i care far too much for a person who's just a friend.
but at the same time i know i wouldn't want a relationship with you, i'd be heartbroken beyond repair and i know you and how fast you can mend your heart but that's not how it is for me. you're not right for me.
but all our conversations, all the secrets we've shared and promises we've made, all the times we tried to help each outer and listened, all the times we shared our memories,feelings, hopes and dreams. you were a part of my life that I cannot deny. and what we had is a good friendship. sometimes I feel like you really care, other times i jump to the conclusion you couldn't possibly, but at the end of the day, asking for something more would be completely selfish as what more could i want than a seemingly perfect friendship? i'll never admit to you how your voice makes me feel, or how my stomach dropped when you fell during that basketball match. i'll never admit, even to myself, what i think i feel. i hope you'll be happy in life, and i hope i'll be happy in mine, because we surely aren't heading in the same direction; we're too different. But if at some point our lives did crash, and this friendship turned into something more and we didn't lose touch, I wouldn't mind. and i hope you wouldn't either.
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