i ran down the stairs.
blind with tears i had to hold onto the rail
to stop myself from falling
for you once more.
i ran into a stall, to stall.
because i just couldn't take it anymore.
seeing you laugh and her making you laugh.
that shit hurt.
two fingers down my throat.
you give me purpose.
scratching and pecking at the skin
at the back of my hands.
you give me feeling.
i miss you so fucking much.
or maybe i just miss the thought of being your everything.
i sure as hell know you were my knight in shining armour.
but now you make me want to die.
