The twelfth hour

Love me

The Doctor's POV
I snatched the bottle out of Missy's hands. And dropped it onto the floor next to me shattering it, before grabbing her hands and forcing the regeneration energy back. Something I didn't know I could do, wincing as my cuts pulled.

"Mis, I have an idea please just don't use your regeneration, you only have 2 more anyway, I don't want you to waste them."

"2 more?" She questioned as I smiled. "I only have one." (Yes I know she actually has more than that.)

"You honestly shouldn't have done that, I accidentally pushed one of mine into you when I forced yours back. something is wrong, I can't draw any out to help me but I was able to do so with you." Her eyes widened but I felt no regret.

"Why would you do that you bloody idiot! I was prepared to lose my last regeneration for you!"

"I know, I know, but I have plenty left... I love you too much to lose you like that." I could feel my ears start burning as I admitted something that was real. Sure there had been river but she was right, I'd never loved her, at least not the way she loved me.

"That is no excuse to kill your self for me," Her eyes began to water, and she turned away from me, head in her hands. I gently flipped myself out of the bed and winced whatever she had given to me not helping at all with this but at this point in time I would go through it millions of times to make sure she was okay. I stood up to my full height then turned her around forcefully.

"I would die over and over again to the end of time to see that you were safe and happy, I could never admit it before because I thought it was wrong but now I know there is nothing that could stop me, yes I do think it may not be my smartest decision but, who is to say that all love hasn't been crazy at some point. Face it who is crazier than us. I love you Koschei, to the ends of time and the universe, I love you." I finished needing her to know it. I saw her blink rapidly before burrowing her face into my better side. I curled my fingers through her hair before unpinning the hairpin/knife and continuing to brush through it. She sighed contentedly before pushing me gently back on to the bed which I gladly moved over on, but she shook her head.

"What ever I gave you needs to be fixed," she paced back and forth her slightly wrinkled skirt swishing behind her. "Got it!" She exclaimed running to the cupboard. "Silver. Tell me Doctor, can you intake silver?"She said as dramatically soap opera as she could trying to mask her real fear.
"Yes, yes I can." She nodded before running out of the room to grab something. That's when I let the real pain set in. It made me tear at the eyes and clench my hands into the sheets enough to rip through them in places. Biting down on my bottom lip I was able to hold back a scream. It came out still as a whimper. My vision began to fade in and out but I knew I just had to hold on a bit longer.
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Missy's POV
Why, that was my question, but it was used in so many different ways.
Why could I not save the Doctor?
Why did he still love me?
Why couldn't I just keep him safe without killing him.
Why couldn't I open up and love him freely?
I thought as I ground silver into a glass of water. As I walked back through the console room. There was a message on one of the screens.
Doctor, Missy, where is your sweet Clara now? We are here and she will be the first one to die, I will throw her out with the rest of the trash.
-Davros

Salty...
The Doctor would be in a state of panic when he found out about this, his Clara in danger, what ever would he do. I almost considered not telling him, making something up etc, yet I knew he needed to know. I ran back to the med-bay to tell him but before I could I found him tears streaming down his face, pain flowing from his mind prodding at mine. I knew he wasn't meaning to he was only reaching out for comfort. His breathing was heavy but short, sheet white, speaking of sheets there were rips in them as long as his fingers in them, bloodstains soaked into them, I needed to fix his bandages . A loud terrifying cry came from him. A fresh wave of pain trying to break down my mental walls. I knew I was going to regret it but I let down my barriers and felt secondhand the pain that was setting his veins on fire. Even dulled as it was in my head I blinked tears away. I poured a small bit of the slightly sparkling water into his mouth. It did nothing he wasn't able to swallow it at all. He did seem to calm a bit once I let him in. Just then a question poked at the back of my head. Where had he moved us? I knew leaving the med-bay would force him mind back but I needed to know. I kissed him gently on the forehead before running out of the room. I threw open the doors and there we were,karn. The one planet that could save him happened to be the one that hated me most. It was time now he needed to be helped. I ran back taking my walls back down, his pain slamming into my brain. I gasped, it was getting worse, much worse, far to fast. I walked back closer to him, gently picking him up and thanking Omega for extra strength. It wasn't like he weighed much but the average person would have trouble, but to a time lady, it wasn't anything too difficult. He tensed the moment I picked him up, more pain slammed against me. I hated doing it but to keep my thoughts straight without passing out I was going to need to pull my barriers up. I did so gently pushing him out at the same time. He cried out again pain falling back down on him. I carried him to the gates where I was met by ohila the high priestess.

" You are in no way welcome here." She said regally.

"It's not like I'm not aware of that. I'm not here for me... I'm here for the Doctor. He is dying and I believe it would be in your favour to help him. It's not a bad thing to have a call anytime mistress favour." Ohila thought about this for a moment or two before opening the gate and guiding me in.

" I will do nothing to help you I will give him the elixir but the rest is up to you. We are in favour of the Doctor now anyway." She poured a very accurate amount into a cup before administering it gently. "I may work it may kill him, we will see what fate chooses." She said bluntly as if it didn't matter to her, with that she left the room all that was left was the Doctor who had long since been unconscious, a large basin filled with clean water and myself. I couldn't help but let my mind wander to Clara, the fear she must be feeling, I know that by now she must know they were looking for her. A small voice from the ground caught my attention.

"Koschei?" The Doctor's raw, sandpapered voice asked.

"Hey, hey, it's okay it's okay," I said hushing him. The last thing I needed to do was stress him again.

"Where are we?"

"Karn, I found where you had dropped us, and I... you weren't doing very well so.. erm.. I took matters into my own hands. Don't worry for the first time ever I didn't do anything to reckless." I left out the part of his possible death.

"You look exhausted Missy. Lay down,please." I only then realized that I was in fact exhausted. I laid down gingerly down next to him. Bringing one hand up to play with one of his perfect curls, the gray perfectly fitting him. He sighed and pulled me closer to him, I shivered despite the heat coming off of him. He gently pulled his over coat off and draped it over me. I continued to play with his hair just as I had when he was a little girl... that was something I would never forget. I knew that it would not stay this peaceful for long, he was going to be in tremendous pain in a few short hours, worse than it had been, but it would heal the mercury poisoning and overdose, it sadly would not heal the other wounds, not all of the way. I think he knew it was coming because he curled tighter into me hoping to get a sense of safety, his blood seeping through his over jacket onto mine, he was going to bleed out if I didn't do something soon, but at this point, he wouldn't let me go if I tried.

"I love you." I mumbled pulling my hand out of his hair and curling down so I could rest my head on his chest. We both slept for the remaining hours we had before the pain would set in and dawn would begin.

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