Our Love

Chapter Five

After saying sorry and all that good stuff. I just wanted to call him and say I'm am idiot for leaving you I still love you but that doesn't work like that. He called and heard me upset and tried calming me down and asked me out I just wanted to automatically say yes but I would look desperate for him. But I did say yes. And was happy again, but of corse something always has to ruin my love life with Brandon. The guy that I broke up with kept texting me and Brandon wanted us to just get along and be friends well being friends was just being friends to me but not to him he kept saying shit like he missed me and he truly loves me. I felt bad but I didn't love him I loved Brandon and that's how it was.

"Hey babe I have to do this clan meeting and can't talk to you for about a hour or so" Brandon's sweet soft American accent went through the phone.

"Okay." I sighed and hung up not even saying bye I love you.

My Ex kept texting me. And it made me feel like I'm more then a game. And my Ex said he wants me back and really I didn't want to go back but all I wanted was the attention of being someone's. After talking to him more my mind played a trick on me and made me think this is Brandon talking to me not my Ex. But it wasn't it was him the one who has lied to me about his identity. I though it through. I'm not going to be with anyone anymore I'm not going to keep going back and forth with them it just puts someone in pain every time. So I did it I broke Brandon's heart again and I feel like a Bitch and whore and a slut I shouldn't have let Brandon fall for me I thought. I shouldn't have never talked to the guy I felt bad for when I was at the library. I didn't talk to them for about two days. But then I text my ex saying sorry and said hi to Brandon because I was bored when I text my ex but with Brandon I miss him.

When I talked to him he was so negative and depressed. I wanted to die. What ran through my head was I did this to him so I should suffer. I thought hard and thought about cutting maybe it would help?

I looked at the sharpest thing in my room and played with it in my fingers. But got interrupted by a text from Brandon.

Brandon: I miss you

I looked at it and a tear slipped my eye.

All I could think is he saved me from cutting myself and whatever could have happened.

Emma: I miss you to<3