„Layla your Dad and I are off to work! Please make sure that you're brother behaves!"
I shut down my computer and make out a lout sigh.
„Sure mom have nice day at work!"
Im Layla, 22 years old a daughter to Lebanese Parents who came to Paris because no-one accepted their love. I have a bigger Brother, Jamil, he is a famous underground Rapper who helped me a lot in improving my own music career. Even though Jamil and I earn enough money my Parents still work at their Restaurant, I think they would never give it up.
Jamil and I are very different personalities, He was the problematic one, he selled drugs when he was 15, ditched school and came home only late at night. My mom says God really has to love him that he opened the door of music for him. Music really saved him from Jail.
Me on the other Hand was a very good student, I even got a scholarship back in HIghschool and spend 2 years studying in Seoul, South Korea.
I lived at my best friends Jiwoo's House, were I could improve my Korean more and I really got attached quickly to her and her family. Hoseok her younger brother turned into my own brother really soon, we shared many moments together I will be forever thankful for!
When I leaned back into my chair I suddenly smelled something I was way to familiar with and faster than imagined I moved to Jamils room.
„Okay first of all, why are you smoking indoors this is straight up disgusting Mama and Baba will eat us alive and second of all how dare you not inviting your own sister to being high"
I chuckle and make myself comfortable on his Bed ready to maybe gain some inspiration for my new song.
„How is your album doing?"
I slowly inhaled the smoke and let all my stress exhale with it.
„I dont know, its hard, I don't feel inspired I wanna write about love and even tho I know how love feels at the same time I don't.."
„Its okay don't stress yourself some things take time, I feel it in my bones ur upcoming album will reach people worldwide!!" I laughed at his enthusiasm. „By the way how is Zen doing?? I haven't heard from him in weeks" By the way Zen is my boyfriend of 2 years he is a underground Rapper too and I adore him to death but I can't show him that, Im not good at showing emotions and at this point in my life I don't feel like I love myself enough I have to work on myself and this is resulting into that I cant give him my full me, even sexually. Im just not ready to expose myself in front of him but gladly he never showed any disappointment from it.
„Hes doing fine, he's working on a new mixtape currently" As Jamil and I concentrate on the silence that was slowly filling the room he came near to my and hugged me tightly
"Jamil I can't breath" "Im sorry, its just.. Im so happy to have you and Im so sorry I keep being a disgrace for all of you, I don't want you to look after me you are the little sister I should look after you I should be able to protect you from everything but I just keep on doing silly things im nearly 30 and never had a single good relationship I wonder if I ever get to experience my own family."
His eyes started to fill with tears but he hugged me even tighter then so I couldn't see them anymore, he truly hates being seen while crying and it hurts my heart that he has such thoughts.
"But Akhi (= brother) you aren't doing anything wrong anymore, look how your career has improved u have such a great fanbase I couldn't been prouder of you! So stop thinking negative and be great full for this time!"
He looks me deep in the eyes "I will miss you the most" , but when my very confused self wanted to speak suddenly my phone rang and the caller ID on this FaceTime call only left my smiling brightly. I kissed my brother on the cheek and made my way into my own room to accept the call.
„JIWOOOOOOO"
„LEYLAAAA"
„How are you baby?? I missed you soo much!!!"
„Im fine I was just working on a new collection, I think in 2 month I can send you some new stuff! But how have you been??"
„Omg that makes me so happy I love your designs! Im doing good Im just working on a new album currently.. OMG IS THAT HOSEOK OPPAAAAA"
I nearly freaked out seeing him, its been so long He truly got even more Handsome
„Jiwoo did Hoseok turned into one of your models or???"
„Hey leyla wow u look so pretty, no Im sadly not one of her Models but im in a Boygroup don't tell me you didn't knew that!"
My jaw just dropped to the ground and I don't know if its because of his smile or because of his Job. It made me really happy to see we all achieved somehow our dreams. I spent talking with them for some more and Hoseok told me anything about Bangtang, after finishing the call I went to my Bed to take a nap, but before going to sleep I wanted to hear Hoseoks voice and started to hear „Ddaeng" the Rapline is truly overflowing of talent but this certain part of the Leader just shoot straight threw my heart....
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Tears | Namjoon Fanfic
FanficIts my first story so the chance that this is Boring is high This Story will contain Drugs and smut, If you get triggerd easily I wouldn't read it. you've been warned. English is not my first language so Im sorry for all mistakes, I will edit the s...