I woke up to someone shaking me. I opened my eyes to see Anne Maire smiling at me tiredly. I blinked a few times and rubbed my hands over my face to try and wake myself up. I had fallen asleep watching TV not long after Lauren had went to bed.
"Thanks for looking after them. Do you want me to drive you home?" Anne Maire offered. "No, it's okay. You probably just want to get to sleep" I said standing up off of their incredibly comfy couch. "It's not that far, I'll just walk" I smiled at her. I could see a look of both relief and tiredness wash over her.
"Here" she said tiredly, handing me $20. "Thank you" I replied hugging her, "Good night!"
I left the house and entered the cooling breeze. I walked along the path. Occasionally I would hear the sound of teens throwing a house party as I walked up the street. I would go to a party tonight but I'm too lazy to go home and get dressed up. I just wanted to go home and sleep.
I got to my house and stabbed the key in the door. My mum still wasn't home. I locked the door behind me and went up to my room. I got changed and climbed into my bed. It was still early, well 11 o'clock but still, so I turned on my tv.
I went on snapchat and watched people's stories. I held down my best friend's name and saw that she was at a party. She never mentioned anything about going to a party. The picture changed to a video of her kissing a boy. They pulled away and I felt my heart drop. She was kissing Ben Slick, the guy I've liked for years and she knows that.
I couldn't watch anymore, I was too hurt. I put my phone on charge and went to sleep. She didn't tell me she was going, then she kissed him. Of all the people she could've kiss, why him?
She's not even that good looking. She looks like a horse that has been electrocuted. I so fucking done right now.
I tried to push the image from my mind. I just wanted to sleep, not think about my 'best friend' kissing the guy I have liked for ages. That's all I could think about though. I felt so betrayed and she didn't even care.
Do you ever feel like the people how should care about you, just don't and never will. Maybe its just me and my really fucking bad judge of character. Everyone I care for always ends up screwing me over. I'm so tired of it!
I'm just going to live alone for the rest of my life. Maybe that way people will stop hurting me. Its always me would who gets hurt, never them, it's not fair. Just once I'd like to be the one to leave a relationship of any kind in a better state than the other person.
Before I had I could even realise, I was asleep. Sleep is one of the few things that takes over and you don't realise it until you have to wake up. That's why I love sleep, I make time for it and it recharges me.
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I woke by mum caressing my face gently. "Hi, sweetheart" she said softly. "Hi, mum" I replied, sitting up slightly. "Anne kept telling me last night how much of a star you were, looking after her kids for her" she said proudly. "Yeah, they're nice kids" I replied.
"She also phoned me this morning to ask if you want to look after them more often, like a job?" she asked. I perked up. "Really?" I pondered. "mhm" mum hummed nodding her head. "I'd love to" I answered. "Well then I guess I'll go call Anne and tell her the good news" mum smiled at me before leaving my room.
I looked around my room for where I was sitting on my bed. I had a pin board full of pictures and bucket lists. All of which included Trina. Of course they did she was my best friend. Key word of the sentence was.
I knew that I might be jumping to conclusions, so I thought it was best to clear things up with her. Give her a chance to confess and explain.
I took out my phone to text her, only to see I had a text from her.
From Trina
Omg, why are we so boring? We should have been out partying last night :P
Was she serious? She thought I didn't know. That is it, I'm not going to take her lies and bullshit anymore.
To Trina
Not did you go to a party without me or telling me, not only did you kiss the one guy I really like but you also thought you could lie about it. I can't do this anymore Trina! You always lie to me and I'm sick of it. You're meant to be there for me but you never are, so just leave me alone. This friendship is over.
A tear ran down my cheek. I quickly wiped it away and hit send. I was finally doing what was best for me. She text back a minute later.
From Trina
Fine, back to loserville you go because who wants to be friends with a fat cow like you? Not me anyway!
I threw the quilt off of me and got out of bed. I went over to me wardrobe and took an old shoe box. I walked over to the pin board and took down every photo that had Trina in it. I shoved them all into the shoe box. By the time I was done the board was almost bare.
There was about five photos left and they were all of Ben. "Woah, I am such an idiot" I said quietly to myself. I ripped the pictures off the board and tore them up before shoving them in my bin.
My mirror was also surrounded and partly covered with photos of Trina and I. I took them all down and put them in the box as well. I closed the box and wrapped it in Sellotape so I wouldn't open it.
I opened up the attic and brought the box up there. Placing it in the far corner hidden from view. As I was leaving the attic, I looked towards the box one last time. I wished that I could just erase that time from my past. Everything about it hurt to think of but yet I couldn't being myself to throw the pictures away. They were part of me and I could throw part if myself away, I just couldn't do it.
Well at least that part of your life is over. Thanks brain! It wouldn't have happened if you had done your job right. You decided to listen to your heart instead of me, therefore this is not my fault.
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Hi! So yeah, second chapter. I actually can't believe this has hundred reads on only one chapter, it's amazing.
I'm in a bit of a pickle when it comes to this story because @alitacokitty was meant to be writing it with me but she not going to anymore. Which leaves me at a bit of a loss because I'm not really sure how to write this well or how to get from this part to the climax of the story. I don't really have a lot of ideas from this so it's a lot harder o write.
If anyone wants to help me write this story, message me or comment that you want to help because it'd be a great help. Even if its just to say something you want to happen in the story.
I love you. -Niamh
