the heartbreak

The Thing & The boy.

I took a late night walk when everyone went to sleep. I like being alone outside at night when everythings beautiful. I might take a smoke every now and then but thats rare now that they have detectors at school where they scan you (to see if youve smoked or have done any drugs in the past few days) as soon as you walk through the door.

Outside is the place i usually think outloud. I take runs just for fun, but I only last a few seconds because im really lazy and I think I have breathing problems.. anyway theres usually no one outside at this time (11:36) but tonight theres alot of guys I haven't seen before. It freaks me out but I honestly didnt care. I walked to the park and sat down on the end of the slide, there was a man sitting on the swing. He says hello but I dont answer. He trys to talk to me again, thats when I decide to head home.

He follows me.

I start to speed up but he slows down a little. I think im okay and start to walk, I was running out of breath already. I could feel the loud beats of my heart, it gave me a headache. I felt weird and dizzy.

I turned around and the man has seemed to have gotten closer; he's a few feet behind me. I start to speed walk again, so does the man. I start to run. I ran as fast as I could. I felt like i was a cheetah trying to race a car, trying to be faster than anything in the world. I got to my house door and I turned around and saw nothing. I looked around and there was absolutly nothing. I turned back around to the door and slightly opened it. I turned around to check if anyone, anything was behind me. I saw a head peaking from behind the trashcan in my driveway, watching me walk in my house.

The next morning I ate breakfast, went to school, and then went to my bestfriends house. (Immari). I told her about the night before and she thought I was just seeing things. I thought about it all day long.

Since it wasnt dark yet I decided to go to the park. I could see everyones face so i felt completely comfortable. I walked in and sat where I always sit, the end of the slide. The slide was green and short, short enough for me to lay back on and listen to my type of music on a beautiful day.

There was a guy. He was the most handsomest thing I've ever seen in the world.. I stared at him for a couple seconds, hoping he would notice me; and thats exactly what happend. He looked in my direction and looked around. I put my head down to check my phone and then looked back. He was staring at me. I smiled and I think I blushed. He started to walk towards me and I looked down at my phone and bit my lip. I was so nervous.

What was I going to say to him? Oh my god why do I feel so nervous?? I never get nervous.

I tell myself to calm down, that everything will be okay.

He sits on the slide next to me. I try so hard not to smile but I do anyway.

"You have the most beautiful smile." He said.

I look at him. "Th- thank you." I say.

"My names Chad, by the way." Chad said.

"Mines Desirae." I say.

I can't believe he actually came over to me! Oh my gosh, its like he read my thoughts and knew exactly where i was and exactly what I wanted to happen. A cute, handsome, amazing guy just found out I exist.. Oh my god. I think Im going insane or something.. whats wrong with me?!

"Sooo, do you come here a lot?" said Chad.

"Yeah, almost everyday. I come here at night sometimes too." I say.

"Oh cool. We should hang out sometime beautiful." He said.

I cant help but to smile. "Yeah, that would be great handsome." I say.

We both look at eachother and laugh. I love his smile. I check the time and Its getting a little dark so I decide its time to start going home. He offers to walk me and I say sure. We stand up and hes a few inches taller than me, I love that. As we start to walk home I accidentally drop my phone. He picks it up for me and says 'here you go beautiful, sorry if it cracked' The way he said it made me laugh.

"Is there something funny missy?" He says jokingly.

"Pfft no. What are you talking about." I say trying not to laugh.

"Why do you have to be so beautiful?" He asked.

I thought to myself and I think hes on something if he just said what I think he said.

"What do you mean?" I say.

"That face of yours, Its so beautiful. And that smile, that smile of yours can end wars and cure cancer. I swear. Your so perfect to me, anyone else would be insane to think otherwise." He said.

I didnt know what to say to that so I just laughed and gave him a friendly punch on his arm.

We arrived at my house I stopped and told him that was my house.

"Well, goodnight beautiful. Sleep well darling." he said with a slight smile. "Is it okay if we meet at the park tomorrow at noon?" he added.

"Yes. That would be perfect." I said.

I turned around and walked to my front door. I ran upstairs to my room and jumped on my bed. I was so happy I screamed into my pillow. I couldnt wait until tomorrow, ugh. 12:00p.m needs to get here already. It was only 9:21 and I didnt know what to do to pass time. I turned on the tv. Every five minutes I would look at the time but I wouldnt mean to.. I just couldnt wait. He was so amazing and his smile and his eyes, his personality *sigh* ugh hes just so perfect.

It was midnight and as I layed in my bed with my thoughts swirming around like a bunch of wasps keeping me up. All I could think about was him. What if he was thinking about me too? What if he cant go to sleep because of me?! Oh my gosh what have I done?.. Im keeping someone up. Well maybe im not because he could be sleeping right now.

I run downstairs to get some of my Icecream. Its coffee flavor. Icecream makes me sleepy, I dont know why.

After I ate the icecream I layed down and fell asleep