Seventh Sentiments

Late Again

Why was it that I'm always late?
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For me, Time is Gold. I value it more than anything. It was a virtue I always kept within me. If someone would see me talking now they would probably laugh at me for spouting these words.

Well, I couldn't blame them. They'll be surprised if they heard me. After all, I was always late. Late at everything...

30 years ago. How was it again?
It was a bright sunny morning. As usual I'm running fast, dog tired, late again for my P.E class.

Perhaps it was the most unforgetable morning I had that would hunt me forever...

P.E class had just ended, when I recieved a letter from someone I deemed suspicious. Well, to my shock, it was actually a love letter. It was a heartfelt one, I clearly could tell how much effort did she put in when she wrote that piece of letter.

once I left the classroom while holding that piece of that bloody letter I got stabbed by how intense those dagger like piercing, envious gazes of my boy classmates when they stared at me. Little did they know I have no interests to this kind of stuffs.

When I got further away from them, guess what i did with that piece of letter?

I crumpled it to pieces!
Yes! I crumpled it into tiny pieces until no traces of that delicate red paper could be seen.

Then, the biggest regret I have ever had came to me like a thunder bolt. My heart was smashed into pieces...

She saw me tearing that paper. I saw her crying.
How could someone, be so heartless to do that! I asked myself many years until now.

How could I be late to realize... that i like her?

She was always bright like that sunny morning where the last time I vowed to be late came to be.
And that was the end. we never talked again.

I knew it all along...
It was me who was late at everything.

After what had happened on my past it made it difficult for me to enter into relationships. I do dates but they're not my girlfriend.

Honestly, what a jerk i had become?
But I kept my promise, I'm not late.

Always right on time when being at an apointment.
I managed to gain a high position in our company.
Well, after 5 years. It didn't take long before I have became the C.E.O of the said company.

Those years I devoted to work... those months I became late again.

That's right. I've broken my promise again.
I have failed to realize... it was actually a game played well.

Just when I'm about to become serious in our relationship, I was late again to realize... All she wanted was my money.

That spunky whore!
I knew it all along...
It was me who was late at everything.

I lost my position. it devastated me, just because I was late I lost it.

Followed by that shitty experience, I closely guarded myself. Never to love again. Admired by many, preferential treatment
everywhere. Easy money. The Life of a Bachelor.
It didn't take long when I regain and composed myself.

Then I met my clock, she prepares breakfast for me and wakes me up early with that loving kiss of hers. I couldn't get enough of how lovely her scent was. especially when she puts her tiny pearl white, hands on her hair, curling her hair while staring at me with that pretty smile.

Though, I like her... I have to remember my lesson.
And so I kept an arms length space from her, not daring to go a step closer.

I knew it all along...
It was me who was late at everything.

6:42 Sunny Morning, she died.
I was late again.

Holding a bouquet of red roses. I'm in front of her tomb.
Today, I'm asking her approval.
Because today, I don't want to be late again.

two weeks ago, I met her again. through all the years I have never forgotten her.
That girl who cried when I torn off into pieces that letter she gave me. As what I had expected, she grew up into such a beautiful fine lady.

Fixing my hair, I quickly went to my car and fastly drove of to the airport.

Please let me meet you again...
Let me not be late again.

Even if I knew it all along...
That It was me who was late at everything.

Let me not be late again.