Suicide Hotline . yeobin

yī

Soobin can't breathe.

The latter was pacing around his room, while looking at his cracked phone.

He picked it up and the clock says a perfect 11:11 pm, his favorite time

But this time Soobin didn't close his eyes to wish for something nor did he feel happy about seeing the time.

He was ready, the pills, his blade, the bath tub filled with water, and he made the notes for his family, his friend, and to his boyfriend- ex boyfriend to be exact which was placed messily on his bed table.

Soobin left his ex boyfriend, Yeonjun, for the latter to never get hurt.

He doesn't want Yeonjun to get hurt when he decided to kill himself so the best solution that left his brain is to breakup with the said boy, which left both of them broken.

Yeonjun was a sweet and caring guy.

Always protecting and loving Soobin, always showing Soobin on how much he means to him, always loving Soobin so much that he even wonders if he even has self love anymore, always making Soobin feel that he's enough, and was always a boyfriend material.

When Soobin and Yeonjun broke up, it cause a lot of question on everyone's head, especially Soobin's bestfriend, Beomgyu

Beomgyu was beyond confused, but after listening to his bestfriend's rant, he finally understood, but little did Beomgyu know, everything that Soobin told him was a lie, because Soobin never got tired of Yeonjun, he loves him, Soobin loves Yeonjun so much.

And there was Soobin again, staring at his phone for what seems like an hour but when he checked the time again, it still shows a perfect 11:11 pm

"Fuck it" he mumbled, he hurriedly typed the numbers, that he thought was going to clear his head before he dies, or so he thought.

The boy choked out a loud sob when he heard the other line spitting gentle words at him saying "Hello this is Seoul's suicide hotline, this is Yeonjun speaking how can I help you?"

Soobin was now sobbing, sobbing so hard at the mention of his ex boyfriend's name

"Hello, are you okay? What's your name?" Soobin lost it, he hugged his phone, while covering his mouth to silence the loud sobs coming from it

Soobin thought for a second, but then quickly lost the thought when he realized that he's got nothing to lose, so he softly spoke

"Yeonjun hyung its me" Soobin choked out his words "Its Soobin"

"Soobin? Why are you calling this hotline Soobin? Do you know my shift time here? You have my personal number" Yeonjun was beyond confused, but he refused to think of the worst

"N-no I-" Soobin stopped, he didn't know what to do, he didn't know what to say, he was scared

"Soobin, what's happening?" Soobin felt the gentleness on his words in which only results to him crying and sobbing loudly against the phone

"Hyung, I came here to clear my head, but since you were the one who answered my call, I just want to say goodbye" Yeonjun was scared, scared that the conversation would end

"But I never stopped loving you, Junnie" Yeonjun's tears flew freely on his face at the mention of the old nickname, it has been so long since he heard that nickname

"But why did you end it? Why did you end us?" Yeonjun was quick with his words, afraid that Soobin might do something

He wonders on what happened, what did particularly go wrong