Suicide Hotline . yeobin

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Yeonjun felt heavy

Being the idiot he is, he ignored the heaviness against his back, thinking that maybe Beomgyu just threw a blanket at him

Yeonjun was still in his deep slumber, when he felt his body shake

He stayed still, pretending to be asleep, when he heard a voice

The person kept mumbling the word 'Sorry' repeatedly against his ear

He stirred making the boy who was hugging him freeze

Wait, Beomgyu is already home

Shit

"Binnie...?" His voice was hoarse probably because he was just awoken up by his slumber

He felt the other boy's hands leave his warm body, he frowned at the loss of contact

He sat up straight on his seat as he took a good look at the other

Soobin was sobbing against his palm, as he desperately tried to hide against Yeonjun's stare

"Bin" Soobin ears perked up at the old nickname, oh how he missed that nickname, the way the nickname rolled off against Yeonjun's tongue made him slightly happy

"It's b-been so long since y-you called me that" Soobin raised his head to look at Yeonjun

He was shocked, Yeonjun was looking at him dearly, he even wondered if the older has seen something behind him, but no, Yeonjun's eyes were fixed on him

Slowly, Yeonjun eyes starts to tear up, as he slowly reached out a hand to touch Soobin's cheeks

"I-I thought I-I'm gonna lose you" His sentence was followed by a forced and dry giggle, Soobin stayed quiet as he let the older do what he wants

Yeonjun placed both of his hands on his cheeks as he looked at the younger boy in front of his, a few and dry chuckled would escape his lips as he stared at the beauty

Yeonjun searched for his hands as he silently clasped them together

Both of them were silent for a moment, until Soobin tried to spark up a conversation

"Hyung... I-" Soobin was taken aback by the other's actions

When Yeonjun realized that Soobin was trying to say something, he immediately hugged the other afraid of the harsh words that he thinks is gonna leave the younger's lips

"Soobin, I am so so sorry"

"Binnie, please don't ever do that again"

"Bin, please don't leave me"

"Soobin, I still love you, and I will always love you"

Soobin's heart was aching, he softly pushed the other away as he placed his right hand on his chest

"It hurts"

Soobin mumbled, Yeonjun stared at him in confusion

"Binnie? What is it? What hurts? Are you ok-"

"NO! Hyung, my heart hurts, I-I don't know what happening to me, I-I am sorry"

Yeonjun stared at the other shocked

Soobin was sobbing against his palm

He stayed still, watching the broken scene in front of him

"I'm.... sorry"