Losing Allison

I love you?

"Because I love you"
I didn't know what to say. I ended up going upstairs,trying to figure out why he said that.
All I could say was

"What the hell"

Out of the blue . What a cliche . He doesn't mean it. If he loved me , he wouldn't have gotten a hand job from ms. jessica. Dumb bitch.

I mean I did like him but isn't it too early to start a relationship with him . I would have started dating his ass in about 3 months from now. He's early.
Hmm I don't know . Should I keep teasing him? I know he hates it but I enjoy it. Fuck it . Me teasing him is better then hearing him say that again.

I go back downstairs and hit him on the arm.
"Ow! What was that for?"
"Messing with my feelings"
"I'm not trying too"
"Ah! Let's not talk about it anymore lol"

The Next Day
Noah and I went out with Tom for a bit. This was fun but somehow me and Noah always find it awkward between us two. I always try to think of something else but he's always in my mind . Saying "I love you" on repeat. I can't even look at him the same anymore . I hate this feeling . Why did Noah have to say that? Does it matter if he loved me or not? I mean I did like him. Ah I need to forget what he said .

We are all at the beach , chillin . I stay silent as Noah and Tom talk. I would often swim for a bit because I couldn't stand being alone with Noah. So here I was swimming and watching the waves collide. I finally have some alone time and it's nice.

Moments later, I look back and notice that Tom is gone. I look for Noah and notice that he's coming towards me. Oh shit. I swim further and he catches up. Damn it. I swim a bit further and notice that he's far. Thank god .
I turn around and see Noah. I gasp and try to swim away from him.

"What are you doing ?"
"I need to get away from you"
"Why? What did I do"
"It's nothing"
"Was it because I said 'I loved you'

I stop and swim towards him.

"You really need to stop"
"Why? I love you"
"Just stop!"
"That's how I feel"
"Your feelings are wrong!"
"They're not! I do love you"
"Then why were you all over jessica last night!!"
I start to feel tears fall on my cheek and I quickly swipe them away. I look down and turn away from him. I keep crying but I feel his arms around me.

"What are you doing?!?! Let me go!"
"No! Because it's not what you think"

I turn around to face him.

"Then what is it!!!"

He clears his throat and states " she's obsessed with me . I don't like her at all. She was trying to act as if I was hers , but I'm not."
I bite my lip and say " Then how come you were moaning in the supply room?"
" well. Uh. I was only in there to get cleaning supplies but she's the one who locked the door and had her way with me"
"Then how come you didn't stop her"
"Because she would have made a fuss to my boss and probably could have gotten me fired. Trust me she's a bitch that I don't want to get involved with".
"I'm one too" I play with my fingers.
"Your different"
I look up at him and he looks at me.
"Whatever" I state
He starts to ruffle my hair and splash water my way. I laugh and I do the same thing to him. We start to play with each other again , just like the old days.
As we were playing, he picked me up bridal style and we continued to laugh. We are the iconic duo that everyone talks about lol.

Once we were done, we returned to the sand and changed our clothes.

"Are you almost done? It's time to go natalie"
"Omg Wait Noah"
He laughs "alright"
I exit the bathroom and push him away. Tom smiles and we hop in the car. We all sing and dance along to songs that we know . It was fun. For the meantime. I enjoyed it. After of what seems like an hour, I start to drift asleep for awhile. Noah and Tom notice me asleep in the backseat. Tom parks the car and takes Noah inside a convenience store I believe. As soon as they got back, I can feel a blanket on me. I get cozy and warm but I also feel someone moving my hair out of my face. He laughs and goes to his seat. My best guest was Noah :)

As things go dark, I finally go to sleep in the car.
*Dream*
"Allison!" I panic and see Noah.
"You lied to me about your name? How could you!"
"I'm sorry, I had too"
"Why?"
"I can't tell you"
"What else did you lie about?"
I look down and he sighs.
"Was our love ever real?"
"Wait..."
"It's too late Allison"
He pushes me out of the house and closes the door.
"Noah Wait! Come back! I can't do this without you! Noah! Noah! Noah!"
  *Dream ends*

"NOAH!" I scream.
"What's wrong? What happened?"
I look around and realize that we are in the house already. I glance at Noah. I instantly hug him.
"Wow, what's wrong Natalie?"
I start to cry on his shoulder. He pats my head and rubs my back. He keeps saying "it's alright. I'm here"  I try to believe that but what if he finds out about my secrets? Would he still be here? Would he kick me out ? Would he keep loving me? I hug him tighter not wanting to let go. He separates us and he lifts up my chin.
As my tears keep falling , I try to swipe them away but he stops my hands . He removes my tears with his hands . I look at him and he smiles. I instantly remember saying

"This boy will definitely mess me up :}"