Forgive and Forget

Okay I get it! I fucked up. Big time. I know I did. What I did a year ago was unforgivable but enough is a enough. I've done everything to get her to forgive me. I gave her space. Let her do whatever she wanted. I even let her date. Everything I know to do.

Okay let me start at the beginning. I found my mate when I was 14 and she was 13. Young right? That's what I thought too. Anyway she just moved here a month before. She was fat, ugly and a loner. I was the popular jock with a beautiful girlfriend. Cliche right? Now wait before you get your panties in a bunch that's not why I rejected her. To me she was still beautiful.

How we meet was your cliche moment. I was walking down the hall with my headphones in blaring my music minding my own business not paying attention when someone slams into me. I knew who she was but she stayed away from us. So I didn't know her personally.

"Shit sorry Harper. I wasn't paying attention." I babbled helping her pick up her books.

"How did you know my name?" she asked. Her voice so angelic. Made my toes curl.

"Your in my." I couldn't say pack. "Family." I finished.

"Oh yeah."

"Keagan." I introduce myself sticking my hand out for her to shake.

"Nice to meet you." she shakes it and that's when I knew she was my mate. The shocks going thru my body said it all. She felt them too because she gasped and smiled. Which I returned. "Your my mate?"

"That I am." about that time the lovely bell just had to ring. "Crap I'll talk to you at lunch." I said.

I kissed her on the cheek and ran down the hall to my class. Luckily I had my girlfriend in there and I broke up with her on the spot. All thru the morning I couldn't stop thinking about her. I knew nothing about her. All I knew was she was in a grade below me. Which meant she was younger than me. I was fine with that. But what I wasn't fine with is that she was 13.

To young to have a committed relationship. She needed to experience things. Her first boyfriend. Me of course but that's the other problem. She needed to experience first boyfriend, first breakup. We both were just young. We both needed to experience life before we got into a committed relationship. Sure I had plenty of girlfriends, plenty of breakups. It's only fair she get to experience that too. Right? No I had no intentions of ever dating again. I found my mate. I was in love with her the moment I actually got to meet her. But we are still to young.

See when you meet your mate your life revolves around them. I couldn't do that to her or me. Yes I love her enough to let her go thru her teen years without her needing to 'can we go' 'can I go' 'are you going' blah blah blah. She doesn't need my permission to do something. She just needed her parents. And if we got together that's exactly what would of happen. We would be asking each other for permission to do the slightest thing. Not fair to her or me.

You ask why I found my mate at such an early age when everybody else finds theirs at 16. Well because I'm next in line to be alpha. I don't know why but alphas finds theirs early. Well not this early. I've never heard of it. And trust me I've been learning the alpha roll since I popped out of my momma. Yeah I know everything there is to be an alpha and I'm still learning. Luckily I get to be a kid too.

That's the other problem. Harper is the next alpha female. I couldn't do that to her just yet. She would have it twice as bad as me. She would have to start going to meeting with me and follow mom around learning what the alpha female does. Like taking care of the pack, learning to solve problems within the pack. Then helping me make decision about the pack. See I couldn't shove that down her throat just yet.

Maybe when she's 16 but not now that's just to much for a 13 year old. Hell it's to much for me at times. So I made my decision. At lunch I looked and looked for her. I finally found her underneath a tree reading a book looking as cute as ever.

"Hey." I chirp making her jump a little.

"Hey."

"We need to talk."

"Okay." she says slowly and gulps. She stands up looking nervous. I really don't want to do this to her but I have too. Here goes nothing.

"I'm rejecting you." I blurt out. Okay I really didn't mean to say it like that it just came out.

"You can't we're mates." she says with silent tears running down her cheek.

"I know but.." that's as far as I got before she punched me knocking me on my ass. Yeah my girl has a lot of power behind that punch. Before I could get up and explain things she was gone. I knew I screwed up. I knew I needed to explain things better. But since I haven't shifted yet and she just disappeared and that damn bell just rang I couldn't go look for her. I couldn't ditch that's a big no no with my parents.

So I'll just have to talk to her after school I picked up her stuff went to my locker shoved it in and went to my next class. The rest of the day I thought about how I was going to explain everything. I couldn't focus on anything but that.

After school me and the guys went straight to the pack house. I haven't told anyone yet that I found my mate. I needed to talk to her, my parents and her parents first. Once we got there I looked for her. I was told that she came her after school to help in the daycare. Yeah we have a daycare. It's for pack members who work. But she wasn't there. So I left the guys and went to her house.

"Is Harper here?" I rushed out as her mom answered the door with tears in her eyes.

"No she left." she sobs.

"When will she be back?"

"I don't know."

"WHAT?" I boomed. Hell no. "Where did she go?" I growled.

"Her aunts."

"Where?"

"London."

"What the hell for?!"

"I don't know she came home and said she's taking her aunt up on her offer."

"And you just let her." I growled.

"It was her decision."

"Your her mother." I protest.

"I know but it's a great opportunity for her. I just don't know what made her suddenly change her mind." I sighed heavily.

"I do. Can I come in?"

"Sure." so we went in and I explained everything. I told her all my fears what I thought was best for Harper and she agreed. So I went home and told my parents the same thing. They agreed also. And suggest I let her stay instead of chasing after which I wanted to do.

All I knew was my mate was gone.

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