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"And you kept silent? Why? How could you?" Taene almost yelled at you.
"It's not that Taene, Namjoon came inside just then when Justin wanted to go on a date with me. Namjoon asked why the door was locked. I didn't answer and Justin couldn't either. Who locked us in there?"
Taene looked to her left and right innocently.
"That's not important for now! I know you well, Y/N. You still wouldn't go on a date with Justin."
"Yes. You're right. It felt wrong. I felt safe in his arms, but there was danger in my heart. I don't deserve to feel safe in someone's arm, Taene. I don't deserve him in the first place. How can I allow myself to feel something when I'm with him? I can't allow myself to try again. I just-"
"Y/N... when will all of this stop?" Taene held your hand, she was tired. Tired of your way of hating yourself.
You both were in the living room, waiting for Hoseok to come home. Until Taene decided to ask you what exactly happened in that one room. You told her. You explained to her what you felt and what he was doing to your weak heart.
"When do you plan to try again? When do you plan to forget everything and start a new chapter in your life?"
You let out a heavy breath, slightly tearing up.
"Taene, how can I forget? How can I forget when it was my fault? How? How when those nightmares still appear every night, reminding me that it was my fault. Do you really think I can start a new chapter? Is it possible, tell me? Can I really allow myself to fall in love and be a burden to him?" Your voice was breaking, you were saying those words with so much pain.
"But Justin is a great guy. If not Justin, what about Jungkook? Didn't you say that you loved him?"
"His voice. Jungkook is my hero. And Justin is ..." It was hard to find the right word for Justin. What was Justin really for you? Was he just a friend?
"You don't even notice it. You dummy already opened your heart for Justin." She was telling the truth. But it was nonsense for you.
"Taene, stop." You stood up, wanting to leave from there. Taene also stood up and took a deep breath, ready to scold you a little.
"But you need to be happy, Y/N. You can't live your life all alone, you have to forget! It wasn't your fault. It was his fate. You can't change someone's fate. But you can change yours. So do it before it's too late. I don't want you to regret it later when you finally realized it." Taene said in a loud tone. You turned around, your hand against a wall.
