The Lost Truth

chapter 30

Y/N's POV
January 2019

I didn't realize that I had fallen deep for Taehyung.
Now every day I sit forgetting that he left.
He left.
Yes, Taehyung left.
I can't continue working.
My job was my happiness, but it was accompanied by Taehyung.
Now I'm lifeless.
What year to start.
He's making his fans happy, but I guess I never realized he was the one making me happy.
I guess I'm broke.
Taehyung, you were my lost truth.
The truth is I love you.
The truth is I need you in my life. 
The truth is you've always been the person I loved.
And I can't stop loving you.
I was late to realize it.
I can't remember if it was you.
I can't remember who he was, but sometimes I think it was you.
Then I couldn't believe.
Jimin.
He told me he loves me.
"I love you"- Jimin
I looked at him shocked.
My head searched for words. Any, but how do I respond.
When he turned his head down he smiled a bit.
"It's fine, I knew you wouldn't accept me as someone to love. You love Taehyung. I'm sorry to make you uncomfortable. I'll try hard to stop liking you."- Jimin
He walked away from me once he finished talking,  but I was left speechless. How does he know I love Taehyung.
He had already walked out the door.
Even if I wanted to chase after Jimin, I think it wouldn't be a good idea.
Gosh, why does life have to be so hard to deal with.
I ruffled my hair in frustration trying to think of what to do.
Jimin.
What do I do about him?
How did he learn that I liked or love Taehyung?
I couldn't think straight anymore.
When frustration hits me the best, I grabbed my keys and phone and walked out of my house.
I'll be gone for a while.
I got in my car driving to a place a don't go to often, but it's here.
It's a park, but I know a place here that no one goes to.
If you look past the trees that leaves have fallen you can see a small lake.
There's a bench near the water.
I sat there for a while.
I sat there in silence until my emotions got the best of me.
"Taehyung, if you are my best friend, if you are my lost truth, if you are my everything, why won't you come out and tell me!"- Y/N
That anger didn't last long until I cried.
It's been a good while since I've last cried.
My hands catched my tears while they poured down my cheeks.
Why was it when I needed him the most he left me?

Jimin's POV

I slapped myself a few times thinking threw if I should just come out and tell her that I'm in love with her.
I couldn't bare another second thinking this threw.
I was already at her door.
Just knock.
Just knock.
Just knock and then run away?
No, just knock and tell her everything.
Tell her, you love her.
I got it over with I knocked on the door even though I regretted it afterwards.
"Hey Jimin what do you need?"- Y/N
I couldn't look at her straight in the eyes in the moment. Then I blurted it out.
"I love you"- Jimin
Her eyes averted mine.
I admitted this to her, but now I'm guilty.
"It's fine, I knew you wouldn't accept me as someone to love. You love Taehyung. I'm sorry to make you uncomfortable. I'll try hard to stop liking you."- Jimin
When I finished talking, I walked away.
Taehyung and everyone else is on tour, but I came back to see her.
I wasn't focusing, so they thought it would be better to take a break for a while before I come back on tour.
I know I left her clueless.
I know I'll regret my decision, but I couldn't continue loving her when Taehyung and her are both in love with each other.
I walked continuously farther away from her house and closer to our dorm.
I tried reminding myself to breath and keep calm before I couldn't and I wouldn't be able to control my emotions.
I walked into our dorm, but inside I saw a crying Taehyung.