Overly Dedicated (Book 2)

"Growing Apart (To Get Closer)"

Kendrick Lamar Duckworth.

I walk through the front door of my condo and close the door behind me. My plane leaves at 11:30 tonight. I decided to come home and spend some time with my baby girl before I leave off for my two month tour. Walking into the bedroom, I hear the shower running and hear Jayla singing in the shower. She sounds so terrible and that made me laugh a little.

I began to remove my articles of clothing and went into the bathroom. I made sure that she couldn't hear me and I carefully slid into the shower with her. She was startled at first but relaxed when she saw it was me. "Kendrick! Why would you do that?! You scared me!" She said as I just looked at her body as the water hit it. I licked my lips. "Sorry baby girl, I just wanted to surprise you. What you not happy to me? I'm happy to see you."

"Yeah and something else also looks happy to see me too." She says with a smirk and points to my manhood. I smirk and move closer to her planting a kiss on her lips. Jayla began to deepen the kiss and I held her waist as our tongues explored each other's mouths. The next thing I know, I have her leg propped up on the side of the shower as I stroke in and out of her slowing.

With each stroke it's like I'm putting my heart out to her, her facial expressions and moans speak love. Jayla and I started talking a little over a month after the whole Marley situation. As you should all know by now, Marley rejected me and said that she couldn't leave her husband. I respected her decision and kept true to my word by not having any contact with her since that night.

It just so happen that I had to do a performance and Jayla was there to style me. We had a nice conversation with each other and exchanged number. At first it was kind of awkward between us but after a while we got used to each other. It took three months before we made it official. We have been together for right months now, things are getting pretty serious between us but I don't know yet. We have been inseparable ever since.

I think I have come to conclusion that I do love Jayla. We never said it to each other yet, so I don't really know if I should express how I feel or not. I'm a man and we don't really express our feelings like that. I feel myself about to climax and give her one last deep stroke. She screams out as I push all of myself in her. As I slid out of her I say, "I love you Jayla..." I climax in the shower and the water is still running.

My breathing heavies and I stare at her as she looks exhausted and looked into my eyes. She kisses me with such passionate in it. "I love you too Kendrick.."

We exit the shower and get dressed into some casual clothing. Our plan was to go out bowling and out to eat. I have already packed my bags, so when it was time to go all I had to do was leave. I could tell Jayla was upset about me leaving but she tried to put a front on for me. I will just spend this time I have with my baby girl and enjoy it.

Marley Fontain-Copper.

After I found out I was pregnant with Taylor, Benjamin and I decided to moe to Atlanta. Well it was mainly his idea, he said it would be better for him.. well us. I didn't really question him, I just went along with it. If it was up to me, I would still be in California because that was home for me. But Benjamin said he had family down here, that he wanted to start visiting more.

Speaking of Benjamin I haven't spoken to him in a while. He stopped by the house to grab some clothes and change, but he left in a rush. I didn't question him because I knows how much he hates me doing that. Our marriage has been going pretty smooth lately, except for his absent in the house. It sucks having to sit in this big house all by yourself. I don't have any friends here in Atlanta or family, except for Rachel. She's not really a friend but more of an associate and the only person I know here besides Benjamin.

Taylor just went to sleep not too long ago, now I'm completely alone and bored in my room. I lay back on the bed and put my headphones in. I press play, not really caring what song begins to play.

♪♪ So in conclusion, we all seem to stumble, planning our own demise

Forgetting the big picture and making it wallet size

So to what is important in my life, I apologize

I promise to stay faithful, focused and sanctified

We all get distracted, the question is

Would you bounce back or bounce backwards? ♪♪

I slightly bob my head and listen to the words of Kendrick flow through my ear. As I listen to lyrics, it speaks to me and makes me think of Kendrick. I remember the last time I ever spoke and saw him, that day he put me between a rock and hard place. At the time I did have feelings for Kendrick, but I was and still am a married women who deeply loves her husband. I couldn't just leave Benjamin like that, I saw him starting to change and wanted to stick it out with him.

But now its different, he hasn't really changed. He is still the same old Benjamin just without the constant beatings. The last time he put his hands on me was a month ago because I accidental bleached his favorite blue button up. It was really an accident, I was trying to wash clothes and feed Taylor. If he was home more, I could have done it correctly and not ruin his shirt. And I told him that, which only made him even more upset. I just can't win with him.

There are days when I think of Kendrick. I sit there and think about maybe I made the wrong decision to stay with Benjamin. But there is nothing I can do about that now, I have to live with my decision. I'm content with that.