dilatory | na jaemin

three

jaemin had gotten a fever and all of us went to visit him.

all the boys were circling him but let him have the space he needed.

i nudged yoojin, "you should comfort him after these boys are done talking to him."

"but i'm going to freeze and won't talk like every other time," she pouts.

"come on, i know you can change that," i say.

she sighs then nods after, smiling. i push her lightly towards him. the others went to get snacks and drinks downstairs.

i hope she does well. i sit on a nearby chair and go on my phone. i take a peek of what was happening and she was putting the wet towel on his forehead. she's doing it! phew.

"yeseul," i hear yoojin calls out.

"yeah?" i reply.

"jaemin wants to talk to you."

that was really quick. i walk towards him. he looks so pale, it makes me sad.

"can you stay with me, even though the others will leave soon?" jaemin asks.

i turn to yoojin and look back at him.

"but yoojin can take care of you," i reply.

"but i want you to take care of me," he whispers.

this isn't suppose to happen. yoojin is suppose to take care of him.

the others suddenly come in and bid their goodbye's. yoojin suddenly also left.

i grab her wrist, "wait, you have to take care of him."

"it's ok, there are other opportunities, he wants you to take care of him, bye seul-ah," i pouted as she left.

i feel extremely guilty right now. i walk back to jaemin.

"how'd you get this sick? don't ever get sick again because i don't want to take care of you, you really need to quit your smoking habit, that could be the reason, do you see yourself? you look so pale-" i rant but got cut off when e took my hand and pulled me down to lay next to him.

i widened my eyes, shocked with his actions.

"y-yah," i stutter.

why is he doing things that makes me have this weird feelings on my stomach. i feel like i'm betraying yoojin right now.

"just be quiet, you sound like my mum," he weakly says.

what made me shocked the most was when he put his arm around my waist. ok, that's it. i try and wriggle from his grasp but he's too strong.

i gave up and somehow had fallen asleep as well.

***

i woke up to find out it was already dark. i looked for my phone to check the time.

7:24pm.

i fix my hair and clothes. i burry my face into my hands. i feel so stupid right now. why, why did i let that happen?

jaemin then appeared from the bathroom door wearing a white hoodie and black ripped jeans, his hair still damp. i got out of his bed.
he looks really handsome right now, yoojin is really lucky to like him, she should see this.

"wait, stand there," i say and position him.

i take out my phone and take a picture.