the replay of the memories / peter parker x mj

part three / tears and thoughts

MJ had talked to Ned for a while before he calmed her down, tears streaming down her face. She told Ned not to come over because it still might not be safe to be on the streets even though the flying doughnut-shaped ship had left Earth, they didn't want to take any chances.

MJ turned on the TV, hoping for any sort of an update on whatever the fuck was happening right now. The whole of New York was chaotic, everyone was confused, the news lady didn't have much to say only that the president has declared a state of emergency and that everyone should stay calm and try to carry on with their daily lives, they didn't know if the spaceship would come back or not.

She couldn't comprehend how confused she was. She had so many questions, so many worries, so many thoughts about possible things Peter could be doing right now, places he could be, people he could be surrounded by. Is he with Tony Stark? Is he with the Avengers? Did he not make it to school this morning? Is he gone on duty trying to help people? Is he on that spaceship? Is he in trouble? Is he... is he dead? Her mind was being bombarded with all these questions and she couldn't handle it. She couldn't lose him, her best friend, her boyfriend. they had talked about their future so many times, places they wanted to visit, things they wanted to do once they finished school. This couldn't be how it all ended.

An hour had past of MJ lying on the couch, drowning in her own tears and thoughts. Overwhelmed by the fact that she had no answers, she didn't know what was happening, she didn't know where Peter was or if he was okay or not. She had nothing. She was alone in her apartment, craving some reassurance that the one she loved most was okay.

Her thoughts were paused by the sound of someone on TV talking about Spider-Man and the Avengers. She instantly reached for the remote and she turned up the volume louder than necessary, she needed to hear every word.

"It has now been confirmed that Queen's very own masked hero, commonly known as Spider-Man, is missing. He was last seen gripping to the spaceship that flew over New York earlier today." The news lady didn't sound very sympathetic. MJ was in shock. She started hyperventilating and then sobbing, not like before though these were hysterical tears. She hated crying. She hated showing too much emotion in general in case anyone took advantage of her being vulnerable but she was alone now, so so alone and she didn't know what else to do than cry. She did nothing but cry that day. She was completely and utterly broken. She knew that the spaceship had flown out of the atmosphere, and took Peter with it.

She called her mom. She told her everything, Peter being Spider-Man, how he's on that spaceship that flew over her earlier and how she felt so alone. She didn't know what to do.

Her mom was on her way home when MJ called her. She arrived back at her apartment 10 minutes later, rushing over to MJ who was sitting on the ground, her back against a wall, tears dried on her skin. She looked sick and tired. MJ's mom crouched down and wrapped her arms around her, reassuring her that it was all going to be okay in the end.

"I should've just told him to stay home with me today. I should've gone on that school trip. If I went he could still be here, he could still be alive." She felt the tears stream down her face once again.

"MJ- shhh look at me baby it's not your fault. You need to stop blaming this on yourself, there is nothing you could've done."

She brought MJ over to the couch and sat down with her, arms still holding her tightly. It didn't take long for MJ to fall sleep in her mothers arms. She felt safe in her her arms, even when she felt like he whole life was crumbling at least her mother was always there to reassure and protect her.