Being the baby brother

Chapter 4

Brandon's POV 

As soon as Drake leaves I run upstairs to my bedroom.

I just told my brothers...I'm scared...will they be mad? Am I just being a attention seek? I mean I tried so hard to hide it but it was killing me inside to hide it from them.

Sighs its like I'm in a battle. The side of me that wants to do it are the devils, the side trying to stop me are the angels. I hate the feeling of when the battle is raging inside of me. I can't do or say anything. I agree with both sides to be honest. I don't know what to do. I've been wanting to tell my brothers for a while no one else knows. I-I'm so scared there going to hate me. They'll think I'm a freak, attention seeker and most of all they'll judge...

They'll judge me. They won't love me at all. I'll be hated by them. Why would they love me? I'm not lovable. I'm not a good or responsible person.

What's going in my mind..

Angel~ I understand where your coming from and why you self harm but please don't. Please stop self harming. You hurt so many people when you do it..

Devil~ Pffft what people? No one cares neither do we. Self harm takes pain away. That's all we care about.

Angel~ No.. it may seem good at first but do you want to get addicted? What good comes with self harm? You hurt so many people, that care about you. Don't be blinded please by the devil. Your stronger than you know and have more courage in you then you believe. Your better than this and you can rise up.

Devil ~ HaH sUrE tHeY dO. No one does as I told you. There fake and forever will remain that way. 

Angel~ Are you sure they don't care? I mean they have been looking after you for years, putting in there best efforts. What do you mean they don't there life basically does sometimes revolve around you. 

Devil- ....

To be continued..

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