"Go ahead and cry little girl, nobody does it like you do. I know how much it matters to you, I know that you've got daddy issues."
Daddy Issues - The Neighbourhood
I laid on my bed staring up at the ceiling. I couldn't even begin to process what just happened on my most recent date with Harry. I had went over to his house earlier today and it was going normal, we had a few drinks together and talked just like we always do. And then it happened. Finally. How am I meant to explain it to Sydney? I know she'll pry and pry until she gets every single detail but I've always had a hard time sharing my experiences with sex because every time I've done it, it's been apart of a job. I've only had sex with one other person who wasn't an older man my family needed information from. My ex boyfriend, Bryce. We had dated when I started taking classes at a local community college. I was very quickly pulled out and switched to online classes as soon as my father noticed I began to make friends. The only friends you need are family. That's what'd I'd always hear. Bryce was my first real taste of a normal relationship and of course it never could have worked, just because of my work schedule alone. But as soon as he started learning more intimate details about me he made that decision for himself. It just wouldn't work out. I had shared with him such private information about the few other times I had sex with other people and he was very unhappy. I never wanted to share that with anyone but he made it seem like he was so interested and would be so understanding. And of course he had a past of sleeping with different women but as soon as it came out I had slept with an older man I became such a freak in his eyes.
"Hey girlfriend!"
My head shot over to my bedroom door. In walked Syd with her sunglasses covering her eyes. I watched as she took them off and tossed them onto the small white desk in the corner of my room. She sat herself down on the rolling office chair and scooted her way across the wooden floor over to my bed.
"What are you doing here?" I say slightly panicked. She tilts her head at my expression.
"Well hello to you too. And for your information I was coming to hang out." She says putting her hands on her hips. "Little did I know we already hung out today?" She asks raising her eyebrow. She must have spoken to my father. I had told him I was going over to her house earlier today and of course I was actually going to Harry's. It had become a habit of mine to lie about it without even telling Sydney. I really need to stop doing that, if I start getting too careless things will begin to blow up in my face.
"Did my father say something?" I rushed out before she could say anything else.
"Don't worry. I told him you forgot your phone charger, he knew you wouldn't survive without a full battery." She laughs and I roll my eyes.
"Sydney, oh my god listen, I have to tell you what happened today." I say as I get up from the bed and peek out of my bedroom door. I made sure no one was in the hall before quietly shutting the door. I turn to her and a huge grin spreads across my face. She raises a brow at the sudden mood change before almost immediately connecting the dots somehow. Sydney has always been open to me about her sex life. I've only told bits and pieces of mine, but for the most part she knows it's all been a shit show.
"Oh my god! I know that face! That's the 'i just had sex face!'" She yells, excitedly clapping her hands. I shush her and point to my bedroom door. If anyone heard us talking about this it would be horrible for everyone involved. She rolls her eyes. "I'm so happy for you bitch." She acts like she's wiping happy tears away from her eyes. "You have to tell me how it was? Was it big?" She asks with no shame. Girl, don't even get me started.
"Oh my god... it was like, really good." I say with wide eyes as my face heats up. I almost feel the need to clench my thighs together just at the thought of him. "I've never.. you know.. during sex before so, it was like such a great experience." I blow out a laugh as I look at the ground. I can't help but feel embarrassed explaining myself.
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