An Empty Space (Book I-Semester)

5. I'll leave before he left me.

3 hours pa bago magstart ang exam sa Literature. Habang padaan sa department entrance nakita nya si Julie na nakaupo sa bench umiiyak tikom ang bibig at parang may inaantay. Inaya ni Zy na pumasok na at magreview...

Zy: Julie tara.(walang sagot) halika na, may inaantay kaba?
Julie: Ah eh, si Josh may klase pa kase kakain muna kami bago ang sunod na exam.

Boyfriend niya ang com sci na si Josh.
Nung isang araw nakita ni Zy na may kainuman itong babae sa gilid lamang ng eskwelahan nung pumunta sya sa dorm ni Jomer para ibigay ang bribe, minabuti nalang nyang wag makialam.

Zy: Ahm si Josh ba? May problema kaba? sabihan mo lang ako hindi kita ijajudge. mas mahirap pag di mo man lang mailabas yan. Pero kung gusto mong manahimik nalang di kita pipilitin.

Julie: sige lang kaya ko sarili ko. (mangiyak ngiyak)

Zy: Oh sya, sa library nalang ako.

Julie: sige.

2 and half hours ng nakapagreview si Zy kaya naman bumaba na sya at dumako sa department para makapagrelax ang utak nya. Pag ka liko nya nakita nya ang isang lalaki na nakatitig sa kaniya di kalayuan at sa tabi may babaeng nakatakip ang mukha na parang umiiyak saka nya napagtantong si Julie yun.

Nais sana nyang puntahan ngunit sa titig ng lalaki sknya minabuti nalang nyang umiwas. Saka nya narealized na si Josh pala yun.

Saktong papasok nalang sana sya ng department ay umalis na rin si Josh naiwan si Julie sa kinauupuan kaya ito lumapit.

Ng makita ni Julie si Zy yumakap sya rito at humagolgol sabay sabing..

Julie: wag ka magrereact please. alam ko ngayin palang tayo magkakausap sa ganitong paraan pa. wag mo akong ijudge. hirap na hirap na ako. pakinggan mo lang ako please...

**iniupo nalang nya si Julie at nakinig.

Zy: Oo wala ako sa posisyon para ijudge ka di ako Diyos.

Julie: Salamat. Matagal na kasi ako nagtitimpi sa lahat ng kag*g*han nya sakin. Sobrang minamahal ko sya kahit alam kong di na ako masaya basta ang alam ko lang mahal ko sya. Ilang beses ko na syang nahuling nagsisinungaling may katext, kachat kaclan tapos kadate tawagan pa nila babe. Minsan nga natawag nya kong babe eh MAHAL tawagan namin. Di na kami gaya ng dati-sobrang nagiba sya.

Zy: May nagawa ka ba para maging ganyan sya? or something na naudyo sya?

Julie: walaaaa... kung meron man di yun sapat na rason para ganituhin niya ako. Binigay ko lahat lahat di ako nagtira. Naging cold lang nama sya sinula nung... nunggg... may na..nangyari na samin. (humagulgol) Sabi nya sakin normal lang naman daw yun kasi nga magshota naman daw kami at paninindigan nya ako. Hindi nya daw ako iiwan at mas mamaahalin pa niya ako. Pero bat ganun? Bakit feeling ko taken for granted nalang ako? Pag tinatanong ko siya kung mahal pa niya ako wala sya masabi. Ilang araw ako di magpaparamdam pero bale wala lang sakniya maliban nalang pag kailangan nya ng ka-fubu😭.

Naku guize wag na wag na wag gagayahiinnnn?!

Julie: Its my gravious fault I know. Walang dapat sisihin kundi ako lang.

**Nakatingin lang ako sa kaniya, actually sobrang amazed akong kaya nya ihandle yung situation nya.. Parang how will I actually react with this situation since never have tried and never been there. I hope i'll never be in the same spot. Ayoko.😑

Julie: Tingin mo kaya I can still fix this??
Me: (nagisip ako ng tamang sasabihin)- Ahm yes maybe you can probably fix yourself. Ikaw kaya mo ayusin yung sarili mo pero yung relasyon nyo? Siguro Oo if and only if he's opt to way back, sa tingin ko kasi he's in a situation wherein siya na mismo ang umaayaw. I know mahirap ito pero if I were you? I'd rather leave before he does. Mas masakit yung ikaw nalang nagstay one sidedly, hindi na balance that's why love compromise for the both parties di lilipad ang ibon kung di sabay ang pakpak, just like di kayo uusad kung hindi mo kayang mangiwan, ikaw nalang nagaantay. Maybe it's time to fix yourself and get a life. Don't let anyone feel the satisfaction seeing you suffer. Just an opinion. In the end ikaw at ikaw lang ang magdedecide sa sarili mo. I know i am not the position to say such things pero kasi yun yong tamang gawin. Maybe if i were in the same spot I'll be choosing to get through the pain than to stay. (brilliant idea i guess🙄) And just think nalang na God won't give the pain which you're not about to absurd. My reason lahat ng niyan and its for you to find out

**my G, coming from the bottom of relationship status SINGLE😂

Nagisip si Julie ng malalim, pero its time for them to get inside and take the exams.

Julie: psst Zy. Thanks for the piece of advise (whispering)
Zy: Glad to hear from you. Ahm your secret be safe from my mind. (smiled)

Ms Roma: You probably have to keep your notes under the table.

Kathryn: Mam a minute please.

Ms. Roma: You need not to browse everything that doesn't work in anyway.
Ok as I said so, should any one has browsers or any reviewers unkept, are not allowed to take the exams.

*While taking the test each and every one shooked😆 by the item to be answered.

It wasn't the exam they are expecting.

Exam:Literature 102

Provided the blank page, write a piece of poem that is base on your experience any alterations will be deducted, correct minus the alterations.

*each of them were pissed off😂😂

**Zy: This may be great than accounting (laugh). Hey, idea visit me you're highly needed.

*Since Zy is fun of doing an essay writing its not that hard for here to do so but then the complicated part is how will they come up with the idea?? knowing no erasures allowed? -bat ba ako umienglish😂

Zy:

" I'll leave before he left me "

My heart beats that fast
Every time I see you dash
My heart melts
I feel guilt
I know - I was run by this what they call fall in love

How can I control it ?
If its voluntary
How can I unsave it?
If its necessary
You were to say something with me
I feel merry
When words came out
You flaunt it out
I said I do- I feel that too

I felt time to admit
I follow you beneath
When I about to say
I saw you in one way
You were talking with someone
I saw the love for one
I know just once,
I scrutinize, you were not bound to love me with honesty

I walk..and
I say..

I will leave before you left me.

(end of exam)

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What if? What if may mabuong ugnayan nitong sem? papatalo nalang kaya si Zyrene sa deal nila ng bestfriend nya? will she give a try? o gaya ng tula nya aalis nalang din sya sa situation na nafall na din sya? Siguro for someone na binahagian ng heartache matatakot rin sya. pero love takes no boundaries kung mahal sya mageffort sila. Gain her trust and let time prepare her to fall.

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