So many people make so many mistakes, and in my case I usually forgive way too easily, almost instantly. I can never tell what a sincere apology is and what is only a fake apology disguised as a sincere one because people these days have become so absorbed with technology that most conversations are through text messages, therefore making it nearly impossible to read the fine print behind the message, the emotion (if there is any...). But recently I have gone through a traumatic experience for a 16 year old. A discovery of something that I never would have imagined possible, a secret coming from a person in my life that I never would have thought was capable of betrayal.... but he was. I have spent these last few days of my summer vacation crying because of the pain that has been inflicted on my heart. I have spent hours reading countless apologetic messages from this boy, but for once in my life I CAN read the fine print behind these apologies. The sincerity is there. The emotion is there. Everything that makes an apology, an apology is there! After the betrayal that has been put inside this relationship, I know that it is going to need some mending..... But because of love and forgiveness I believe that we can come out of this tragedy stronger. Does that make me a naïve little girl? Maybe. But because of my feelings for this person and countless hours of baring our souls to each other about this situation..... I believe that we can make this work again. They always say that the couples that go through everything that is meant to tear them apart are the couples that are meant to be together forever. After this tragedy I have learned a lesson on forgiveness and trust. Trust needs to be earned, but once it is broken, it is possible for forgiveness to be found in your heart, if conversation exists and all of your emotions are confronted and revealed and the apologies are truly sincere. As I think about this, one thing stands out to me..... The fact that Jesus himself begged his father to forgive those whom betrayed him... which is a powerful thought that gives me the strength I need to take this situation head on! I know now that I have a hard road ahead of me in order to mend my relationship, but because of the time, effort and love I have put into this boy, I know that one little rough patch cannot separate us, and I also know that the power of forgiveness is a beautiful thing.
