PRIVATE SHOW {showki}

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Shownu POV

Love is not an easy thing to get, love does not comes knocking at your door, is something that we fight really hard to find, and its even harder admitting it, because its hard and painful to show your heart to someone, to permit access to your most fragile place. But when that love comes running to your embrace, you can not think twice, just embrace the fate, and be strong. Finding love is difficult, but keeping it, it's even harder... Sometimes it just fades away. And I do not want him to fade...

Holding hands, me and Kihyunnie were returning to our house, in a complete silence. But it was not an awkward silence, it was a peaceful one. We did not have anything else to say to each other, finally all the cards were on the table. As we arrived at the house, I was about to open the front door when he stops me, pulling me backwards."I don't want to go back..."he says in a low voice, with his lips trembling. "Kih is okay, I will be right by your side, we can face them together."I say holding him tight in my arms, he was squeezing my upper arm and bearing his face in my chest. "Is not that Hyung... I'm afraid...."he looks at me, with a serious look. "Afraid of what?"I say worried. "That as we return, it will all be the same, we will be apart and I will have to continue to ignore my feelings for you." He says shaking, and as I was about to say something he proceeded. "You don't know how hard it was this past year, to avoid you, to hide. You know how many times I thought of giving up, on the band? That I thought there was something wrong with me? It was almost impossible to be around you and even more impossible not to be... What will happen when we return?..." I could see how he was holding the tears so badly, I reach for he's cheek, my hand framing his face.

"I was weak Kih, I was weak towards you, I knew that I had feelings for you, I knew that I loved you. But I was avoiding and hiding. But now the truth is out, and I know I never felt anything like this towards anyone, Boy or Girl. I look at you now and I see my past, my present and my future. I promise that I will not let you go anymore, your mine Yoo Kihyun!" he smacks my arm and laughs. "Your impossible Hyunwoo! Buy me a dinner first!" I tickle his stomach and he keeps hitting me. "Your so cute"I say, and he hits me harder in the head. "I'm not cute, I'm handsome!" he pulls me into a gentle kiss. Will I ever get used to this? "Okay, okay! Do you want to have lunch with me, we can quickly change, getting rid of this wet clothes and then get away from the kids for a moment?" I say, and he smiles happily before his cheeks turns a deep shade of red. "D-do you mean like a-a date?"He says not looking at my face. "If you want to?... I mean we already have five kids together sooo.." I feel my cheeks burning as well as he laughs. He takes a moment to answer, grabbing my arm and still looking at the ground. "You'll pay..."he says and I laugh, putting my arm around his shoulder and opening the front door. We would face it together.

Opening the door to our house there were no one in the living room, I hear Kih sigh in relief. I was also relieved. As a leader I could not think of only my feelings and I did not want to face it, yet, all the barriers to our new relationship.

I feel hands pocking my cheek. "Are you okay?"he noticed I was worried, but I did not want to make him worry even more now, so I just hide my thoughts with a smile. "Sure". I say a bit to quickly he looks at me suspiciously.

As I was about to say something we hear voices from the Kitchen. "What did they said?"It was Jooheon trying to whisper. "Shush! they will notice us!"Minhyuk is the next one, still not subtle. I let out a small laugh and I could see Kih was smiling as well. "They are in silence... do you think they are kissing?"this time was Changkyun we could sense the silliness in his voice, and then Heoseok laughing . "Gezz we are on a break I just want to sleep watching a movie!"Hyungwon was complaining as always. Seizing that they were not paying attention at us anymore and were just discussing, I lean close to Kihyun ears, that turns completely red when I whisper, cute..." Go change and meet me at my room after."he nods and goes to his room tiptoeing. After he is in his room, I go to mine.