Bitter Sweet

please

I peek,
I scare,
I take,
And I love.

For days, weeks, months, to a year
A whole 365 streak
Of loving you —
At least, in my definition of it.

Scary,
I bet you thought of me like that.
After all, I
Keep on looking at you
In every corner
From every crack
For every smile.

I peek at you,
And I see your smile.
I cry of joy,
Then of sadness,
Once I see
Who laughs with you.

I feel anxious
Are you into that person?
Do you know me?
Can you see me?

I'm scared
Of myself
Of love
Of you
And the thought of you.

I went and done everything
I kept you by my side
I'm scared
You don't like it
Or do you?
I'm so scared.

My arousal
Is difficult.
I feel so hot
Just by the sight of you.

What if I do something
That you don't want?
What if you run away from me
What if?

I'll be anything
I'll be who you want
I'll be the guy
That you'll feel hot for
That you'll love
That you'll laugh with

I'll do anything
Hug you
Cuddle with you
Do anything
Be anything
Do everything
Be everything

Just to please you.

Will my hug
Be enough?
Will my kiss
Suffice?
Will my hips
Destroy you?
Will I
Be perfect
For you?

Will I please you?

Please you
So that you wouldn't leave.
Please you
So that you wouldn't cry.
Please you
So that you would just laugh
Please you
So that you wouldn't brood.
Please you
So that you would feel happy.

Please you
So that
You wouldn't
Beg
Me
To
Leave.

“Please let me go...„

But, beloved,
I just want to
Hug you...

“Leave me alone...„

But I just
Want you to stay...

“I don't love you...„

But I simply
Do.

Beloved, how do I please you?

Please —

Tell me.