Ezekiel's POV
Another day... or should I say nightmare?
Having a broken heart sucks. You feel empty, you feel drained and tired even when you just woke up. just like now, I feel so empty, so drained, tired and lost.
To start up my already ruined day, I tried playing some music. I played Thru These Tears by LANY.
(A/N: Italic for the song lyrics.)
This hurts like hell ~
yes, yes it does.
But I keep telling myself, It's gonna get better ~
Every day I lie to myself that I can still be fixed.
But it's taking forever ~
I have been waiting for too long already.
I tried to go out
But every time I leave the house
Something reminds me
Of what's now behind me ~
Leaving can never be my escape. She's everywhere I go.
Everyday I let go
Just a little bit more ~
In the end I'm gonna be alright
But it might take a hundred sleepless nights
To make the memories of you disappear
But right now I can't see nothing through these tears ~
I sighed and walked to the bathroom. I miss her already, I miss her that it's killing me softly.
When will she come back? nothing is ever so sure about that. How can she do that? leave me all of a sudden? Does she even miss me?
Here I am again, asking myself questions that only she can answer.
I took a bath and wore my uniform. I looked at the mirror and the only thing I see is a broken soul, left behind to fade. I practiced my smile for today, I can't be sad in front of my family. They will only nag me for feeling this way.
"Ezekiel! It's breakfast already! come down honey." my mother called me out for breakfast.
I looked at the mirror for the last time and sighed.
Fake it til you make it Ez.
I went down and sat on the dining table. I kept quiet, and ate silently. I can feel my sister staring at me but I just didn't react to it.
"Son, what time is your first class?" my father asked me while putting food on his plate.
"8:30am dad. Dont worry it's still early." I said the I continued eating.
"Are you okay darling?" My mother asked. Mother's instinct I guess.
"Im fine mother, I'm just lacking sleep. I stayed up late last night." I reasoned, more like lied, then showed her my practiced smile.
I can see doubt in her eyes but she didn't complain and asked again. thank God.
When I finished eating it's already 8:00 AM so I decided to go to school already.
"I'll be going, dont want to be late. by mom, dad, sis." I kissed my mother and sister on their forehead and made "mano" to my father.
"bye darling! take care okay?" My mother said. I nodded at her and when I looked at my sister she was just looking at me seriously.
Girl's really have six senses huh?
