Lost Little Red.

6

"How dare you! I've never in my life been more pissed off at someone than I am with you. You need time I get that but you don't cut off the only people who stood by you."

I opened my mouth to reply but was interrupted by her hand being held up in my face.

"Oh no I'm not done! Two years Scarlet...two fucking years I've tried to reach you. I've called Theo, I've gone through Evie, hell I've even text Anya. You think this shit was easy on any of us?"

She was like a tornado as she paced in angry circles in the foyer. What was I supposed to say?

"I couldn't face you...any of you."

I felt weak, like my voice belonged to someone else. I didn't eve recognize myself anymore. I couldn't face the people I love like this.

"You know that's not true, I've been there for you from the start so I don't want to hear that shit. Where's the fearless Scar I first met? Theo is worried about you."

I winced a bit. I knew Theo was worried he wore his emotions on his sleeve making it easy to tell.

"I wasn't ready to see you okay? Every time I see you I see him. It hurts Nikita, you remind me so much of him that I can't even look at you."

Her eyes softened a bit but I knew she was still mad. I didn't blame her though because I was mad at myself.

"I get it Scar, if Alek ever left me I wouldn't make it through it. I need you though. I wanted you to be my maid of honor standing next to me while I marry Alek. I need you to do that for me."

I immediately started to shake my head no. I was beyond honored that she wanted me to be her maid of honor but I couldn't do it. I knew Vitaly wouldn't miss his little sisters wedding and that Alek probably made him the best man.

No I'm definitely not ready for that.

"I'm flattered Nikita but I can't do it. I'm not as strong as I used to be. I can't see him."

I followed Nikita as she walked past me and sat on the bottom step of the stairs. I took my seat next to her as she hung her head. It wasn't a secret I've been a shit friend.

"Scar I need you to be there for me or I'm afraid I'll back out. I love Alek with all that I have but this is a big commitment. Planning everything has been overwhelming and I need your level head here.

We all miss you like crazy at the house. Nothing was ever the same when you left. I haven't even seen Vitaly in over a year. There's gotta be some kind of hope for all of us to get along."

I knew she was right, I couldn't hide from my problems forever...from him forever. It doesn't matter now anyway because I'm an engaged woman myself, how am I supposed to tell that to Nikita though?

Coming to my rescue Theo walked out of the kitchen at just the right time. I stood up from my spot and walked into his open arms placing a slow kiss on his lips. I felt his hands wrap around my waist and give me a squeeze before letting go and pulling away from me.

"Everything going okay in here babe?"

I glanced over to Nikita who was now standing and staring at me with wide eyes. I didn't blame her I'd be confused if I were here.

"What the hell is going on here?"

Theo laughed and placed an arm around my shoulders and a kiss on the side of my head.

"Scar hasn't told you yet?"

Nikita tossed her hands in the air and cocked one hip out making me giggle.