Chapter 28: Am Thoughts

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She probably doesn't know how much it hurt to hear her say. "Of course we are dumb ass."

Especially when it came to the fact that we were still going to be friends. I wanted to be more, much more then friends.

If only she knew that my dad set up the whole Stacy thing. He knows it would make her push me away, I wasn't surprised at all by her reaction.

Although I was surprised about her still wanting to be friends. I would think after all the crap the media made up about me and Stacy, that she would be to heart broken to actually breathe the same air as me.

It sounds a bit cocky, thinking about her being so heartbroken over me. But she loved me. It should be, if her love is the same as it seems inside my head.

I shook the thought away not being able to think about her not feeling the same, lifting my head from the pillow. I stretched shifting my gaze to the clock that read two am.

I looked around taking in the familiar surroundings of my old house.

Thank god I'm back.

Sky

I absolutely hated Am Thoughts.

They are the reason I'm sleep deprived. All these thoughts jumbling in my mine as the clock goes on and on changing from

1am

2am

3am

And it just goes on and on. It's sucks even more the Brooklyn doesn't leave my mind. I push him away but every time he pops back up.

All those stringed along thoughts of Brooklyn only lead to wet eyes and tear stained cheeks.

Im so fucking happy that he's back, but he's bringing feelings with him. I can't have that happen. Tyler would kill me.

I could easily tell how upset he was that we were going to be friends again. I'm not a dumb ass, I've been in love with that boy for over a two years, of course I could tell how devastated he was that we were going to be friends and nothing more.

I'm still falling way to hard for him.

Now that he's back it's making it harder for me to push him away. I still have the acing feeling of talking to him, and hanging out, and watching a movie cuddled up on the couch.

I still want to smash my lips onto his.

And I hate this feeling, because I know I won't be able to do so. I'm with Tyler now, and I can't change it, although I wish I can.

If I could snap my fingers and be back together with Brooklyn. I would. In a heartbeat.

I shook these thoughts away from my head, shifting my body around in the white blankets. My eyes scanned the clock sitting on my bed stand. Four am was the worst.

It was about the time where my eyes became red and I slowly drifted away from my thoughts, barley getting an hour to sleep until school begins.

I sighed as a yawn escaped my lips. This was the one place I lived for. The place in between being asleep and being awake.

All my worries just seem to drift away.

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Sorry I haven't updated in a while. I was forced to go out into nature with my family. I haven't spent so much time outdoors in a while.

It was to much for me to absorb.

Lmao, isn't if funny that they both are staying up thinking about each other. Wouldn't that be wonderfull, finding out that the person you like or have a major crush on, can't sleep because their thinking about you. Both of you thinking the same exact things about each other.

That's insane.

Whatever, thanks for reading and I hope you enjoyed the short not so long chapter I was hoping to write and until the next.

Bye guys! Love ya!

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