*WARNING THIS MAY BE A TRIGGER*
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Calum: It was just a normal day for the two of you. He would be out with the band for a while and you went to work. When you both come home tired, you snuggled up on the couch watching some of your favourite films.
You were snuggled on the sofa, he was tracing circles into your shoulder. Slowly moving his hand down your arm, giving you goosebumps. Snuggling in closer to him you felt him tense up. You frowned, but stayed still feeling his had on your arm. You eyes went wide as you realised what was there. The scars.
'Y/N..Can I look at your arm a minute?' He said seriously.
'Why would you want to look at my arm?' You say hoping he would leave it. Of course he didn't because he was looking at it in the next few seconds.
'These can't be..' He said, slowly tracing each one. You didn't realise but tears were falling down your face.
'Why...' He questioned, still looking at the many scars. You just shook your head sobs taking through your body. He pulled you into a tight up hug, letting you know that he was here for you.
'It was so hard..' You managed to choke out. He held you tightly in his arms. 'I had no one, no one cared! They didn't notice, why would they I deserve this..I deserve all the pain I get..' You say, Calum eyes go side and his heart reads a little.
'Babe, do you know how important you are to me? You are my world and it kills me to see you like this. Your perfect, you don't deserve this pain.' He said tears forming in his eyes. You knew not to answer back. Just having Calum there reassured that he did actually care. 'Im going to be there every step of the way..' He said giving you a kiss on the cheek.
Luke: The hate. Each comment made you dislike yourself even more. They pointed out each flaw, making sure you understand how ugly and imperfect you were. All you could think about was Luke leaving. As soon as the door shut you rusedh to the bathroom, scrambling round for a blade. Anything that can take the pain away for a little bit.
Sitting down against the toilet you let the tears fall, each slash you made, more tears fell. The comments kept flowing round your mind making even more cuts to occur on your wrist.
'Babe! I forgot my phone have you seen it?' Luke called back. Your eyes went wide. He shouldn't be home. He can't be home now. You looked around and saw no phone in the bathroom, sighing in relief you fell you back against the wall.
'Babe?' Luke called out again.
'Im in the bathroom, I'm nearly finished!' You say hoping you voice didn't sound to different.
'Whats wrong?' Luke said straight away.
'Nothing's wrong why?' You say trying to wipe up the blood.
'Your voice it's different' You hear him step into you bedroom and walk along to the bathroom. 'I'm coming in' He saw before shoving the door open leaving you eyes wide. His face immediately paled.
'Wha-what's that?' He said pointing to the blood.
'N-Nothing..' You say trying to clear up. He quickly rushes to your side. Wrapping up the cuts, and kissing your temple he asked.
'why?' It looked like he had been crying.
'The fans! They hate me, they say I'm not good enough. Which I know I'm not but they keep pointing out my flaws-' You were cut off by a kiss from Luke.
'Don't listen to them..Your wonderful, perfect. And I wouldn't have you any other way.'
Ashton: Ashton was going away for the weekend, with some friends. He was looking out the car winded with a pout on his face.
'Ill miss you..' He says. You nod and lean up to kiss him. 'Ill he back soon don't you worry!' He says. You smile and wave goodbye letting your sleeve fall down. His eyes widened seeing your cuts, but as he was about too say something the car drove off.
You walked in sitting down with a cup of tea before you heard banging on the door. Walking slowly towards the door you wondered who it could be.
Opening the door an out of breath Ashton was revealed. Smiling you looked down at the panting boy.
'What did you forget?' You say. He stood up again and took your hand. Moving the sleeve up so he could see the cuts, you tired pulling away but he wouldn't let go. He placed his lips on every single cut, making the bad memories fade a bit.
'I love you so much' Ashton said looking back up at you 'So much, and I don't understand why..' Tears brimming his eyes. You grabbed his hand and lead you to the sofa. Explaining your story, bringing back repressed memories, sobs raked through your body by the end.
'Shh...It's okay..' He said wiping away the steals with his thumb. 'You need to knew that Im going to be here, and if you ever feel like doing this again you need to tell me..' You nod your head. His kissed away the few strand tears before pulling you into a needed hug.
Michael: Michael was at the studio recording all day, so you decided to do some cleaning. Knowing you would be finished before he came back you decided to put on some shorts that showed some cuts, as it was hot day.
After an hour of running round dancing to music ad a bit of cleaning here and there. You were finished. You sat down, leaning back on the cold leather sofa. You heard keys jiggle about in the lock and the door smashed open. Scrambling up you tried getting up the stirs but you warren tin time.
'Hey babe, looking good!' He said smiling and giving you a wink. Looking down your body he saw your legs. His eyes grew wide, and skin paled even more.
'Please tell me I'm wrong..' He said tears running down his cheeks. You shook your head collapsing to the ground.
Quick as a flash he was by your side cradling you.
'It's going to be alright..' He told you wiping away the tears. You nodded sitting up and leaning against his chest.,
He traced patterns into your thighs, grazing over the cuts being very careful. Each one held their own story.
'Y/N..' He said after minutes of silence. 'If you need too tell me you can, I'm not going to ask you. You can tell me if you want..' You nodded thankful he was so understanding.
'Thanks Mikey, I will tell you, I'm just not ready yet..' He nodded and kissed you temple, still holding you close to his body.
'I love you..' He said 'I love you so much you have no idea..'
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A/N: Please if anyone is suffering from self harm or depression i am always availible to talk to and i know how you feel being a self harmer myself ( clean for 3 months and counting ) i know what your going through i can help so please your not alone come talk to me im always here and i'll always care!
