Hallucinations||E.D.

Ten

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-Hey, its Ethan, wanna come down to the Corner Café to talk?

Me
-hey
-sure, I'll b there in 15 min, cya!

Ethan
-ok I'll see you there Saphire

I received his message in the middle of an argument with my parents. I excused myself and told them I had to meet up with a friend and that I won't be too long.

Of course, I lied. I didn't want to rush things with him, I needed to understand everything.

I quickly rubbed my dog's head before leaving and waved at her goodbye.

I grabbed my coat and quickly left the house not minding to say goodbye to my parents.

I entered my frozen car, a plethora of ice covering my windows. I sighed in annoyance as I had to wait a little longer for my car to heat up.

Once my car was warm and ready, I drove off to the Corner Café. I sped up, leading to me passing the speeding limit. I don't know what the feeling was, yet I craved it. I missed it. I felt it inside of me. I needed it, now.

I arrived at my designated destination in no time and entered the café as I stared at it in awe. My head shot up in every direction trying to look for him.

"What If he ended up not coming?" I mentally told myself

"No, he would never do that." I said loudly enough for only myself to hear, trying to convince my mind I'm wrong

I soon felt a light tap on my right shoulder and my head quickly shot up in that direction, my eyes glowing and my heart pounding.

I don't know what the feeling was, but it was a weird one. One of which I've never felt before.

"So, you ready to talk?" he asked, pointing at an empty table for us to sit at

I nodded my head in response, him noticing my uncomfortable behaviors. I tried to shake off that thought and think about our situation, my situation.

We both sat down at the same time, as I seated myself at the opposite seat. Ethan was now facing me.

We stared at each other for what seemed like an eternity, and finally he had the guts to say something.

"Let's get to know eachother." he suggested

"Ethan, this is not a date, this is me trying to understand what happened to me in the last few weeks. And you might be the only one who knows."

He stared at me in shock, as if he was confused as to why I was being so serious. I returned that same look back at him, but even more confused. He chuckled, shaking his head.

"Why are you so serious?" he questioned with amusement

"Because I've been having these fucking weird hallucinations when Natalie and you were together. It was the most random things to hallucinate about. They clearly had no purpose, since I ended up here, with no explanation." I said, raising my voice catching other visitor's attention

He gave me a dark stare, befuddling me even more. He shook his head in anger and disappointment, looking like what I just said was bad news.

"What were they about?" he questioned, wanting to dig in more into this new situation

I began explaining my odd hallucinations to him, one by one, not forgetting one small detail about them. Everything counted, everything could mean something. Or, everything meant something.

His cold yet soft stare kept creeping up and down my body, as his ears listened carefully. He licked his lips in a seductive manner, not removing his eyes from mine, making sure they're secure in my gaze.

I felt my stomach drop at his dominative stare, not knowing how to feel about it.

I quickly shrugged it off and lowered my head, and now I was staring at the table.

"What's wrong, Saphire?" he asked in his raspy voice

He knew what he was doing. But now was not the right time. I felt my face flush into a crimson red, the heat in my body arising by the second

I did not come here for this.

He grabbed my hand and dragged me close to him.

"Ethan what the fuck are you doing?! We're in public!" I whisper yelled

"I want to show you something." he said, looking at me directly in the eyes, the ethereal light of the sun coruscating through his orbs

"What is it?" I questioned, afraid of the answer

"You'll see." he said before dragging me out of the café

He pulled my hand closer to his, and literally, dragged me out of there. Something inside of me telling me to stop right now, another part of me was telling me to go with the flow.

Obviously, I went with the flow.

I heard him jiggle his car keys out of his pocket and a "beep" can be heard coming from the engine, signalling it was now unlocked.

We quickly entered, him rushing his way to his seat. He drove off and didn't even leave the car enough time to heat up.

He was eager.

My mouth was shut throughout the whole time, not knowing how to react or what to say. We soon arrived at his house, and parked his car in the parking lot.

"Get out, now!" he demanded in a prominent tone

I obeyed and rapidly unlocked my seat belt and left the car. He walked all the way around to come and get me himself.

"I've missed you, he whispered desperately, so damn much."

I smiled at him, understanding what he must've been through.

He ran to the front door, not letting go of my hand. He eventually unlocked the door with, somehow, one hand and pushed me in.

My back was now facing the wall, as his face was inches apart of mine. I could sense his breathing down my neck sending shivers all over my body.

My legs felt week, as my heart was now pounding so hard, you could sense it from afar.

"I want this, Saphire, I need this, he said, sadness laced in his voice, but only if you want this too."

I quickly thought about it and told myself that the best way to try and remember him was maybe this way.

"I want this too, Ethan." I stated confidently, nervousness taking over

"Are you sure?" he asked, making sure about my choice, a small gesture I highly admired

I only respond by a positive head nod and then he says something that made me feel some type of way.

"Get ready baby, because I haven't done this in years."

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only problem is: idk how to. f anyone wants to help me, PM me

I dont even know where this trash book is going
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-Ruqaya♡