Things that happened, and I feel I need to write them down

21/1/2019

Raichu here with a (small) rant.

I can't believe my grandmother had been eavesdropping on me. It's just a phone call. Even if you "had to" eavesdrop for some reason, you shouldn't confront me in the middle of the night. Eavesdropping is an art.

What if I were calling a guy? It doesn't concern you.

Apparently, my family cannot grasp the concept of "privacy". I need space, you know? You can't just knock on my door every 10 minutes when I'm in the middle of a call. And you can't knock every 5 minutes, asking what I'm doing in the toilet. I don't know, scientific experiments?

But at the end of the day, it may have been my fault. Wish I had used earphones. But it's all too late.

At 5am, I coughed so hard, I woke up. My grandma wasn't happy, and accused me of not wearing enough clothes. She complains way too much. And when she complains, she basically covers all possible topics. I don't know how she does that, but somehow the topic switched from water to clothes to my phone call. And that's where the trouble started.

"I HEARD THAT VOICE FROM YOUR PHONE, IT DIDN'T SOUND LIKE A GIRL TO ME" (what she said)

I was so scared. My instinct was to lie and say it was my classmate. I "won" the argument by saying "stop complaining, I want to sleep" then falling silent.

If I jumped out the window, would my grandma expose me? Will my family still care about me? If I had a screwdriver (to unscrew the window frame), I would've probably done it.

But I can't. The urge to die made me realise how much I don't want to die. I had about 20 minutes left, and I had to do something before my grandma exposes me.

So I thought, GRANDMA CAN'T EXPOSE ME IF I EXPOSE MYSELF FIRST!!!!! (Hamilton, anyone?)

I used the time I had left to plan an entire script (scrip), and decided to tell my mom.

Fear kept me awake, so I left my bed 5 minutes earlier to prepare. 

I told my mom, "You know your friend's daughter has a crush, right? (Her sister exposed her at a church gathering.) I think these things should be actively pursued. We shouldn't just sit and wait for them to come."

My mom understood. And for that, I'm thankful.

I think I'm gonna avoid being alone with my grandma. I'll "work on my sewing project after school" and return home at 6.

Let's hope everything goes well.

I think this is officially the scariest day of my life.