Once Upon A Memory

Chapter Ten : Just Not My Day

     School always seemed to pass by in one big long boring blur, but I tended to stay there longer than the usual school hours. I didn't want to go home, I didn't really like to be there. It really annoyed me when I was home. I didn't really get along with my family members, everyone said it was just my teenage emotions breaking through, me wanting to be independent and all that jazz.

     My excuse to stay late at school today was a basketball game, the very first one of the season. Alex had asked me to go with him for band, he didn't want to be the only one there. It was not a mandatory band event, but since we were allowed to play at the game during time outs many of us went. Basketball was a big things aside from football at our school. Alex had his quad drum and was sitting in front of my with my snare drum.

     When the game started I noticed the other school's mascot, an eagle. There was a person walking next to him, and that just happened to be this boy named Jacob. Jacob was a boy that I used to like. He and Alex used to be close friends so I was glad that they had gotten along when we all used to hang out. Usually Kaitlin was there with us too so that it was always fun, and never ever awkward. You know how things get when you like someone, and they say they like you but it's just awkward no matter what you try to do? Yeah that was us as friends. The last time that we all hung out together was when Alex was still dating his crazy ex-girlfriend - the one that liked to control his every move even though she did nothing but cheat on him. I kinda miss those days, when everything was simple, and Alex and I had the perfect friendship. It was when I liked a boy who always flirted with me, and who liked me back for a while, and I didn't have to worry about Alex breaking my heart, because I knew that I could never have him. He was with that girl for a very long time - four or five years I think....I'm pretty positive it was that long. Things always went wrong though, it went south when I started to fall for Alex, and Jacob started to fall for Kaitlin when we all hung out - and Alex still had his girlfriend.

     I had convinced myself that Kaitlin was going to do another 'Brandon' scheme where she starts dating the guy I liked (Jacob), so I stopped talking to her. I wanted to hate her so bad at the time, but I couldn't bring myself to hate her. She was my best friend, and I didn't want to lose her, not again anyway. So I did what any other girl who the guy she liked was going after her best friend....I moved on, but I moved onto the wrong guy. I didn't know how much actual pain that he was going to cause me in the future.

     As the game continued on Alex's best guy friend, the one with the twin babies, dropped off the children to their mother. The twin boy's mother is the band director's daughter and she is a senior who plays the clarinet. There is a lot of drama with that but it doesn't really pertain to what is going on at the moment.

     "Here Alex, take Kyle he likes you," the babies mother said while forcing one of the twins into Alex's arms. Throughout the entire game the baby that Alex was holding was becoming a little fussy. What made me laugh though was when Kyle threw Alex's drum stick and it was too far away for him to reach.

     "Umm....Erica would you mind holding him for a minute while I go get the stick that he threw?" he asked. I smiled and nodded all while laughing. He handed me the baby and got up. The little boy loved me. He pulled me down to hug him and then he played with my hair as I bounced him on my leg. The little boy was laughing and it really melted my heart. I absolutely love kids so it was not a surprise that he liked me too. Although it did help that I have a three year old little sister who I have been helping my mother raise ever since she was born. The motherly instincts just came so naturally to me.

     When Alex sat back down with his sticks he looked back at me with the baby. His eyes were looking directly into mine, and he was giving me a longing look as if he could see the two of us having the most perfect family together in the far future. We were both so mesmerized with each other that when Kyle began to cry we both started to freak out to find out what he needed. We or at least I, hate to see little kids cry. The only reason as to why he started to cry was because we weren't paying enough attention to him.

     "Alex take the baby away from her. She's horrible with kids. They obviously hate her," the babies aunt, the mother's sister, said to Alex. I thought that my heart was going to rip in half when she said that. Alex looked at me with sad eyes as he took back the baby. Kyle was reaching his little hands to me. He wanted me to continue to hold him, and it hurt so much that I could not give him what he wanted.

     "Don't worry about her. She's wrong, kids love you," Alex said as he put Kyle on his lap. The baby kept reaching for me, but I told him no (I didn't want to get yelled at again) so he slapped Alex. I was shocked, but none the less I laughed. That little boy officially had my heart.

     At the beginning of the fourth quarter Alex left to help the mother bring the twins back to the band room so that they did not get trampled at the end of the game. A little while after they had left the baby's aunt sat in the same exact spot that Alex had not too long ago occupied.

     "Look Erica, back off. He doesn't like you, he likes me. You're just a dirty slut who is easy to fuck," she said, got up and walked away.

     Who is she to say that to me? How can a virgin be a dirty slut who is easy to have sex with? It just does not make any sense at all. Jealous girls piss me off to no extent. They seriously irk me beyond belief. With that I picked up my snare drum and stormed off to the band room to put my drum away. After I put the drum away I called my mother to come pick me up.

     "Hello?" she asked.

     "Mom, can you please come pick me up from school?" I asked.

     "No, you have an attitude, walk home," she yelled into the phone and hung up. How on earth did I have a bad attitude? I asked her to come get me as polite as I possibly could. What had I done wrong? I guess today just is not my day, I need to get away from all of these angry people.

     I grabbed my jacket and zipped it all the way up, before heading into the cold windy winter night to walk the twenty minutes to my house. 

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Hi there,

Sorry that it has been so long since I last updated. I've been going through so much.

My grandmother passed away in mid November and I haven't gotten over it. In fact, I'm a mess, and I don't know how to deal with it. She was my second mom. She helped to raise me. 

I'll update when I can, but mentally I am not in the best place so my creativity isn't exactly flowing as smoothly. 

Please bear with me <3