numb.

toxic

I have never felt so weak around anyone,
except you. You have this incredible power to make me fall for you every time you want, leave me wondering, stab my heart over and over again. I never knew love could be this tragic. Loving someone like this, against your health, against your dignity, against your self respect and values; it is taking everything away from me. I get lost in you, over and over again, and despite all the disgusting things you do to me, I seem to forgive you without you even apologising. I do not want to love you like this, but it is the only love I have. I love you dangerously. I'm trapped in everything you do. You are a magnet, that keeps hurting me, but that I do not how to let go of. And it's so tiring I don't know when will I run out of energy to fight against it.